There will be a moment when you get a positive pregnancy test and you will be overcome with excitement in one moment and flooded with fear the next.

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There will be a moment when you thought you were ready for another baby but suddenly feel you should have waited.

There will be a moment when you worry it will seem like you’re replacing the baby who died.

There will be a moment when you are certain you are miscarrying.

There will be a moment when you cry before, after, or during a prenatal appointment.

There will be a moment when you hold your breath waiting to hear the heartbeat.

There will be a moment when you tell someone you’re expecting again and their excitement might make you feel like no one understands how scared you are.

There will be a moment when you buy something for the baby and worry you just jinxed it.

There will be a moment when you wish they could just induce you now when you know the baby can be born safely and you know the baby is fine.

There will be a moment when you hear your rainbow’s first cry and you won’t believe he’s actually here safe and sound.

There will be a moment when you put your baby in a rainbow outfit and post it all over social media.

There will be a moment when you take a picture of your rainbow and have something in the picture representing the baby you lost. That picture will be the most treasured because it includes all your children.

There will be a moment when you are holding your rainbow baby while sobbing over the baby you lost.

There will be a moment when you look at your rainbow baby and wonder if that’s what your other baby would have looked like too.

There will be a moment when you check to see if the baby is still breathing and, unsure she is, you will poke the baby until she moves or takes a deep breath.

There will be a moment when your baby reaches a milestone like crawling, sitting up, or even trying solid foods, when it all feels bittersweet because someone didn’t get to do these things.

There will be a moment when your rainbow turns one year old and you think to yourself you can’t believe you made it to one!

There will be a moment when you find yourself incredibly grateful that this baby is having a childhood, because it’s all you ever wanted: a baby who gets to live.

There will be a moment when you miss the baby who died but feel immense joy for the family and life you have.

There will be a moment when you realize you wouldn’t change your story because it made your beautiful family.

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