Rainbow Round-Up: Rainbow Products at Target

We all fell further in love with Target (I mean, what mama doesn't love Target?!) when they released the Cat & Jack™ Oh Hello Little Rainbow bodysuit. As soon as photos of that infant bodysuit started showing up online, so many Courageous Mamas headed right to Target to get their own. Members of the community even [...]

By | 2018-01-30T17:52:01+00:00 January 30th, 2018|Parenting After Loss, Pregnancy, The First Year|0 Comments

Finding Grace for Each Pregnancy after Loss Experience

Photo by Jazmin Quaynor on Unsplash My daughter is turning two in a month, and recently I’ve been thinking a lot about her birth. I’m finally removed enough from the experience that I think I can actually process the details surrounding her birth. I’ve also given myself permission to have a little freak-out about how scary [...]

By | 2018-01-21T20:50:12+00:00 January 21st, 2018|Parenting After Loss, Pregnancy, TTC|0 Comments

Hand-Me-Downs for the Rainbow

Before I learned about the complication in my pregnancy with Zachary, I had been amassing a small collection of baby boy clothes. My first child was a girl, Hannah, and so I was starting from scratch. I picked up cute onesies form Costco and was given newborn to twelve-month-old clothes from friends and family. Some [...]

By | 2018-01-16T21:20:27+00:00 January 16th, 2018|Emotional Health, Parenting After Loss|0 Comments

The Secret Truth About Gender Disappointment

Gender disappointment. It happens, but few of us want to talk about it. Especially those of us in the loss community. "I'll just be happy if your baby is healthy and alive," we say about pregnancy after loss, because we all know the alternative. We may even demand the same from our friends and acquaintances [...]

By | 2018-01-14T20:40:04+00:00 January 14th, 2018|2nd Trimester, Emotional Health, Uncategorized|0 Comments

Evan Roux – My Rainbow is Turning One

As her first birthday is just two weeks away, all I have been thinking about is Evan's birth story. I wish things had gone much smoother than it actually did, but either way this is how she became our Rainbow. My whole pregnancy, I never trusted my body, as I have said many times. I [...]

A Rainbow Baby: Where Grief and Joy Collide

After a violent storm, a rainbow is a sign of hope, peace even. The storm is over and normal life can resume. But, it may not be like it was before. The storm may have caused damage that cannot be restored to its original state. It may have changed the landscape. The things that were [...]

By | 2018-01-01T21:03:36+00:00 January 1st, 2018|Parenting After Loss|0 Comments

When you just can’t let go of the fear after loss

  I thought it would be easier once she was here. Turns out . . . I couldn't let go of the fear after loss. I never expected to get this far. Even after our baby hung on ultrasound after ultrasound, my previous pregnancy losses made me guard my heart. Every thought of the future [...]

By | 2017-12-17T21:33:57+00:00 December 17th, 2017|Emotional Health, Parenting After Loss, Physical Health|0 Comments

How my Miscarriages have Affected my Career

I have been a nurse for six years now, working with several different types of patients, and had never really found the type of nursing I wanted to stay with for my future. I had never even considered Maternal and Infant Health before I had our first daughter, Charlie, but my birth experience was so [...]

By | 2017-12-14T10:44:55+00:00 December 6th, 2017|Emotional Health, From Professionals|0 Comments

Our rainbow baby is our last, and it’s giving me all the feels.

“I’m done,” I repeated to my husband for the millionth time that week. Just months earlier, we saw our reproductive endocrinologist. We miscarried for the fourth time and wanted to follow up to see if there’s anything more they could do. They told me our next steps were trying IVF, or we could do an [...]

By | 2017-11-19T21:12:12+00:00 November 19th, 2017|Parenting After Loss, Pregnancy|2 Comments

Colbie Jane’s Birth Story

Today our precious little rainbow is eight weeks old. Where has the time gone? Between Colbie’s birth, managing two kids under two, packing and moving across country, time just flew by. I will admit that it still doesn't feel real that Colbie is finally here. Life after going through a pregnancy after loss is very [...]