The Day You Found Out

Photo by Carolyn V on Unsplash It was President Reagan who first recognized October as Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month in 1988. Five or six years later, the International Wave of Light began as a way to stretch love and awareness over the world for 24 hours. You may or may not remember these dates. [...]

By |2018-10-14T20:02:48+00:00October 14th, 2018|Parenting After Loss|0 Comments

Kasey’s Bump Day Blog, Week 20: One Year

Anniversary. Birthday. Stillbirth day. The day I delivered him. I am not sure what to call it. I am writing this post on Danny’s delivery date at 19 weeks, 4 days pregnant. Monday when this post is published I will be 20 weeks, 3 days pregnant and just a few days away from my anatomy [...]

By |2018-10-14T21:04:46+00:00October 14th, 2018|20weeks, 2nd Trimester, Bump Day Blog|0 Comments

The Path I Did Not Choose

When my baby died, everything changed. Suddenly, the path I had planned to walk was blocked. I couldn't continue down that path, no matter how much I longed to. I was jarringly set on a new path. It was bare, empty, and callous. Each rock dug into my aching feet. Over my shoulder, I could [...]

By |2018-10-11T21:09:55+00:00October 11th, 2018|Parenting After Loss|0 Comments

Inside a Pregnant After Loss Mama’s Mind: In Between Appointments

It’s Sunday and I have an OB appointment on Thursday. The last few days I’ve been trying not to think about the upcoming appointment. Trying to find a way to distract myself from what’s coming up. Everything is fine right now. That’s all I need to focus on. In this moment, everything is okay. But, [...]

By |2018-10-10T19:20:54+00:00October 10th, 2018|1st Trimester, 2nd Trimester, Pregnancy|0 Comments

I had a blighted ovum

I had a blighted ovum. What the heck is that anyway? This isn’t actually a medical term, but is used commonly to describe what happens when sperm meets egg and…nothing. A little egg sac develops, but nothing inside. I can’t say it was a baby, because it most definitely wasn’t. No heartbeat. No growth. Nothing [...]

Kasey’s Bump Day Blog, Week 19: Vulnerable Connection

This past week we had another good appointment and ultrasound. I am continually amazed by the incredible support of the staff at my clinic. My doctors, nurses, and ultrasound techs are all wonderful. They are so aware of the emotional toll that these two losses have had on Eric and me, and they are willing [...]

By |2018-10-07T19:05:16+00:00October 7th, 2018|19weeks, 2nd Trimester, Bump Day Blog|0 Comments

Our Eddy’s Birth Story

Late one Monday night, I found myself anxiously wandering through the grocery store trying to kill some time. I had a mild headache and went to the store to check my blood pressure. The first reading was slightly elevated – 135/85 – so I walked around taking deep breaths and waiting to recheck. The second [...]

By |2018-10-04T20:07:10+00:00October 4th, 2018|3rd Trimester, Bump Day Blog, Pregnancy|3 Comments

8 Things You Have Permission to Do as a Parenting After Loss Mom

After a rainbow baby is born, loss moms might feel obligated to parent by a certain set of standards. We may feel pressure from society and from ourselves to do things a certain way. There is a sense that we should ignore the fact that one of our babies died. It can feel like we [...]

By |2018-10-01T20:49:21+00:00October 1st, 2018|Emotional Health, Parenting After Loss|0 Comments

Purple Hearts and Battle Scars

I met a nice woman recently while I was on vacation and we chatted about our lives. When I told her what I do for a living—working with people who are suffering from infertility and pregnancy loss—she told me declaratively that stillbirth doesn’t happen anymore. I corrected her and told her that grieving women and [...]

Kasey’s Bump Day Blog, Week 18: Grateful

This past week I was at a psychologists’ conference in Minneapolis (hence my photo this week from the sculpture garden in Minneapolis).  I am walking away from this conference feeling grateful for this warm, supportive environment focused on connecting over shared experiences and getting to know people for who they are. This is my third [...]

By |2018-09-30T20:07:02+00:00September 30th, 2018|18weeks, 2nd Trimester, Bump Day Blog, Pregnancy|0 Comments