Life With Noah: Holding on to Hope

It's been a hectic month in the Paul household.  As I mentioned in last month's post, we started a fresh IVF cycle, which meant a lot of *very* early morning back and forth trips to my monitoring location (an hour and a half - each way - from our home); we also took Noah to [...]

By | 2017-10-19T21:48:22+00:00 October 19th, 2017|Parenting After Loss, TTC|0 Comments

Permission to Have a Good Day

In the world of loss and subsequent pregnancies, we moms often deal with guilt. There's consuming sadness that our family at face-value doesn't match what it is at heart-value. There's sometimes a nagging heaviness that we could've done something differently or should've known sooner. There's a new element of motherhood that a majority of the [...]

By | 2017-10-19T08:12:25+00:00 October 19th, 2017|Emotional Health, Pregnancy|0 Comments

Laura’s Bump Day Blog, Week 37 – Uncharted Territory

Tomorrow I'll officially be the most pregnant I've ever been. With my first rainbow, I hit that milestone at 35+3, and it was a definitely a tough one, because it coincided with the day we lost our daughter. Hitting 37+1 is tough in a different way - it's hard because it's the day that everyone [...]

By | 2017-10-16T16:45:17+00:00 October 16th, 2017|3rd Trimester, Bump Day Blog|0 Comments

Pregnancy And Infant Loss: A Children’s Book List

Children's literature is filled with beautiful stories that range from teaching kids about the world around them to morality lessons to plain and simple silliness. There are also an abundance of titles that deal with emotionally complicated and difficult topics, like death and grief. But the specific topic of pregnancy and infant loss is more [...]

By | 2017-10-13T06:54:33+00:00 October 13th, 2017|Parenting After Loss|0 Comments

Rainbow Clinics are a Thing and They’re Going to Change your Pregnancy After Loss Care

When I was pregnant again after loss, I wanted everyone at my OB’s office to know that I had lost a baby.  I wanted the receptionist to know, the lab technician, the sonographer, the nurses, doctors – anyone with whom I would interact needed to know that I was anxious and scared because of my [...]

By | 2017-10-12T14:01:41+00:00 October 11th, 2017|For Professionals, From Professionals, Pregnancy, TFMR|1 Comment

You Deserve Support

After our second miscarriage, I had a really hard time recovering. The first one was hard enough. Since it "never" happens, how could I even fathom it happening a second time to us? That was impossible, I thought, so I think it hit me in the gut twice as hard. I had no idea what [...]

By | 2017-10-10T21:52:19+00:00 October 10th, 2017|Emotional Health, Parenting After Loss|0 Comments

Laura’s Bump Day Blog, Week 36 – Well, What Do You Want to Do?

We had our final MFM visit last week. The plan was to assess baby’s size (large), BPP score (perfect) and my anxiety (moderate) in order to make a plan for when this little guy will join us. I have really appreciated this MFM, because I think he met me where I am with this second [...]

By | 2017-10-09T16:34:26+00:00 October 9th, 2017|36weeks, Bump Day Blog|0 Comments

Don’t Sleep on your Back: a report from ISA Cork

Amulets for Nate and Sam The International Stillbirth Alliance (ISA) Conference was going to be on September 23-24th. I saw that as a sign. This was going to fall on Nate and Sam’s 10th birthday. I had been to the previous ISA conference, in Vancouver in 2015. It was so well organized and [...]