Wow, nineteen weeks already. Where does the time go? It just seems like yesterday I was starting another cycle of clomid, praying that it would finally be the month we would conceive our rainbow. Despite feeling baby kicks more regularly now, it still doesn’t feel real at times.
With my pregnancy with our angel, Amelia, each day and week was such a little celebration for my husband and I. Having gone through the heartbreak of miscarriage before conceiving Amelia, we wanted to treasure every moment. Never in a million years did we think we would lose our daughter so soon after birth.
While I am starting to grow a little more excited about this pregnancy, I still feel numb at times. Some days I feel confident, then there are days where I over worry that something will go wrong again. I’m trying to believe that I can do this – That I CAN give birth to a baby, and bring her home from the hospital. I’m praying.
This week we had our anatomy and Vasa Previa scan done, and while it was amazing to see Colbie on the screen, I am incredibly nervous for the results. I’m hoping that at my next OB appointment I will have peace of mind that everything with our little rainbow is okay. So far, she is looking good and measuring where she should be. Now to keep our fingers crossed that everything looks good, and that there is no Vasa Previa present in this pregnancy.
It’s going to be an agonizing two weeks until my appointment. I’m planning on keeping busy, and trying to keep my mind clear of everything, but worry is always on the back of it. Hopefully we will receive good news!