Mikey’s Bump Day Blog, Week 19: Ambivalence and Hope

By |2017-05-02T09:23:16+00:00May 2nd, 2017|19weeks, 2nd Trimester, Bump Day Blog, Pregnancy, Uncategorized|0 Comments

Wow, nineteen weeks already. Where does the time go? It just seems like yesterday I was starting another cycle of clomid, praying that it would finally be the month we would conceive our rainbow.  Despite feeling baby kicks more regularly now, it still doesn’t feel real at times.

With my pregnancy with our angel, Amelia, each day and week was such a little celebration for my husband and I. Having gone through the heartbreak of miscarriage before conceiving Amelia, we wanted to treasure every moment. Never in a million years did we think we would lose our daughter so soon after birth.

While I am starting to grow a little more excited about this pregnancy, I still feel numb at times. Some days I feel confident, then there are days where I over worry that something will go wrong again. I’m trying to believe that I can do this – That I CAN give birth to a baby, and bring her home from the hospital. I’m praying.

This week we had our anatomy and Vasa Previa scan done, and while it was amazing to see Colbie on the screen, I am incredibly nervous for the results. I’m hoping that at my next OB appointment I will have peace of mind that everything with our little rainbow is okay. So far, she is looking good and measuring where she should be. Now to keep our fingers crossed that everything looks good, and that there is no Vasa Previa present in this pregnancy.

It’s going to be an agonizing two weeks until my appointment. I’m planning on keeping busy, and trying to keep my mind clear of everything, but worry is always on the back of it. Hopefully we will receive good news!

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About the Author:

Mikey Fuller
Mikey Fuller is a military spouse who currently lives in Fort Drum, NY with her husband, Shawn. After a year of trying and going through the heartbreak of miscarriage, Mikey and her husband were finally pregnant with their daughter, Amelia. Despite having extra ultrasound scans due to developing pre-eclampsia, a rare pregnancy complication called Vasa Previa went undetected. When Mikey was 37-weeks, she was induced due to her blood pressure becoming too dangerous. However, her delivery quickly became an emergency when her water broke and the exposed blood vessel ruptured. Their daughter passed away eight short days after birth on January 6, 2016. Since their loss, Mikey and Shawn have been blessed with the opportunity to be foster parents and are currently working towards adopting their sunshine baby. Now, one year after their loss, Mikey found out that she is expecting again and decided to share her journey early on in hopes to provide courage to other/future PAL moms. In honor of their daughter, Amelia, Mikey and Shawn started Miles for Amelia to help raise awareness of Vasa Previa in hopes that no other family has to endure the preventable heartbreak they went through.

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