Life With Noah: My, How Things Have Changed

By |2018-11-15T21:35:24+00:00November 15th, 2018|Parenting After Loss|0 Comments

This little boy, y’all. He is my world.

By the time this post goes live, Noah Matthew – our “rainbow gift from God” – will be 3 years old. As impossible as it seems, the 5 pound, 12.9 ounce, 18.5 inch baby we welcomed at 35+4 weeks (two weeks earlier than we’d planned) in 2015 is now a 34 pound, 41 inch toddler. He goes to preschool and has friends and a sense of humor I didn’t know kids his age were capable of. He is the light of our lives, and we are grateful every single day that we were given such a remarkable child to parent.

Parenting Noah has changed me in so many ways.

Before Noah, I was a meticulous housekeeper and not even remotely a last-minute person; I’ve learned that spending time with my family is exponentially more important to me than having a perfectly-kept home, and that sometimes having more flexibility in my schedule leads to really amazing things. Before Noah, I swore I would never own a minivan; now the only thing I regret about owning one is that I balked at getting one for so long (my husband was ready for one long before I was). Before Noah, there wasn’t a lot of color in my life (I was living in a pretty earth-toned world); my once-formal cream and soft blue dining room is now a playroom exploding with color, which has trickled into other spaces in our home, and into my wardrobe as well.

None of these things may sound all that important, but when I think about all of the things about me that have changed since Noah came into my life, I realize that I really enjoy being the person I have become. My before-Noah life was very, very different than the life I am living now, and I’d be lying if I said there aren’t things I miss (a lot), but my life with Noah is full of energy and color and a joy I didn’t know was possible, and I wouldn’t trade it for anything. Being “Noah’s mom” (what the kids at his daycare call me – I love the sound of little voices yelling, “Hi Noah’s mom!” at pickup every day) is the best thing ever.


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About the Author:

Kristen Paul
Kristen Paul currently lives in Southern Maryland with her husband Darrell, and their two year-old rainbow, Noah, and their two cats. After discovering that their failure to conceive was due to both female and male factors, Kristen and her husband were elated when they became pregnant in March 2014 on their very first cycle of IVF with ICSI. In June of 2014, they were thrilled to find that they were having a healthy baby boy; after a perfect anatomy scan at 20 weeks, 2 days gestation, they expected to welcome their son in early December. Just 10 days after the anatomy scan, Kristen delivered their son, William Edward Paul, at just 21 weeks, 5 days gestation due to cervical insufficiency. Kristen had a transabdominal cerclage placed in late December of 2014; in March 2015, she underwent a second fresh IVF/ICSI cycle and became pregnant again. After a difficult pregnancy, Kristen delivered their rainbow, Noah, at 35+4 weeks gestation. She and Darrell and now happily raising a toddler and working on making him a big brother. Kristen may be contacted at

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