Pregnancy After Loss: Hope. Faith. Fear. And everything in between.

By |2018-02-18T15:31:55+00:00February 18th, 2018|Pregnancy|0 Comments

Pregnancy after loss is . . .

 

Pregnancy after loss is worth it.

Beautiful.

Hopeful.

Terrifying.

Moment-by-moment.

Anxiety-provoking.

A prayer with every breath.

 

 

Fear of getting too attached.

Guilt for moving forward.

Holding your breath for 9 months. (God, please don’t let it be less.)

Learning to exhale.

 

 

Going to your OB appointments, and being flooded with memories.

Reminding yourself over and over this is a new baby, a new pregnancy, and new memories.

Feeling overwhelmed that history will repeat anyway.

A walk of faith.

 

Insomnia-inducing.

The deepest gratitude you could ever feel.

Tender.

Hard-fought for.

Innocence lost.

Socially awkward. 

 

Counting each day, each week.

Fleeting peace when you pass the date of your previous loss.

A nagging feeling that you and your baby still won’t be safe.

 

 

Possibly high-risk.

Complete panic.

Tears.

 

 

Relief at every heartbeat.

Terror that something that might go wrong.

 

 

Contractions.

Nurses touching.

Doctors prepping.

Sweat.

Tears.

Pressure.

Pulling.

Pushing.

Tearing.

Here.

Here. 

 

 

Alive.

Breathing in.

Breathing out.

6 lbs 7 oz on your chest.

Perfection.

Victory cry.

There's nothing like holding your newly born rainbow baby after a pregnancy after loss.

 

 

Pregnancy after loss is different for every woman for every pregnancy.

But one thing it is . . .

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About the Author:

Rachel Lewis
Rachel Lewis is a foster, adoptive and birth mom. After a 5-year battle with secondary infertility and recurrent pregnancy loss, she now has three children in her arms, five children in heaven and a foster son in her heart. She now considers her family complete after the adoption of her second daughter and the birth of her rainbow baby. Rachel understands what it is like when building your family is just a little complicated, and is passionate about helping women feel heard and understood in their struggles. When she’s not chauffeuring her kids around or working on her upcoming book, you can find her shopping at Trader Joes, drinking coffee, or writing about her journey as a mom at The Lewis Note or as a contributor to Still Standing Magazine. You can get her free resource,  "Your BFF Guide to Miscarriage: 5 Ways to Comfort a Friend Through Pregnancy Loss" here. Connect with Rachel on Facebook, or join her private Facebook group Brave Mamas -- a support group for anyone who had to struggle to build their family.

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