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  The first time I walked through those hospital doors…it didn't feel real. But the extreme pain my body was experiencing kept my mind tied to reality. This was happening. My late-night ER visit was for reasons that every pregnant woman dreads—blood and pain. So much pain. The first time I walked through those hospital [...]

By | 2017-05-18T12:15:46+00:00 May 18th, 2017|1st Trimester, Pregnancy, Uncategorized|0 Comments

Mikey’s Bump Day Blog, Week 20: Halfway There!

On Sunday, we officially hit the halfway point of this pregnancy! Our little rainbow, Colbie, is now as big as a banana, and I can feel more consistent movements. Despite all the worrying, fears, aches, and pains along the way, I am finally letting go a lot of negative feelings, and starting to love every [...]

Mikey’s Bump Day Blog, Week 19: Ambivalence and Hope

Wow, nineteen weeks already. Where does the time go? It just seems like yesterday I was starting another cycle of clomid, praying that it would finally be the month we would conceive our rainbow.  Despite feeling baby kicks more regularly now, it still doesn’t feel real at times. With my pregnancy with our angel, Amelia, [...]

Jessica’s Bump Day Blog, Week 28 – Slowly Reaching the Summit

Lately, we've felt as if there has been a shift. From day one, it hasn't felt as though we've been walking a steady slope to the end point of this pregnancy. From day one, it has felt like we've been walking up a sheer cliff face. With less walking, but more scrambling, clutching on, climbing. [...]

Mikey’s Bump Day Blog, Week 17: Four Months Down, Five More to Go!

At my OB appointment two weeks ago, my doctor provided me with some options to help with my anxiety and depression that’s been getting worse since the beginning of my pregnancy. Since then, I made the decision to start Zoloft. Normally I am against antidepressants, but it's not good for our rainbow baby with how [...]

The Grief Gap

Five years on, here is something new in the grief: I need to go back to work. I have freelanced consistently over these years of losing and being pregnant again and, now, raising two young daughters. However, the last time I properly interviewed for a job, I was 30, a newlywed, an Innocent. Two years [...]

Let’s Talk About Miscarriage

I never thought it would be me. Maybe it was sweet naivety because this was my first pregnancy. Maybe it was ignorance because I never saw it happen to anyone I knew well. Or maybe it was just misinformation that silence can perpetuate. Whatever the reason, I was far removed from the reality of baby [...]

Faith in December

Faith in December What is faith? What does it mean to believe in something? Faith is not limited to religion or spirituality. Faith is a complete trust in something or someone. It’s a strong belief or a loyalty to a person, thing, science, your children, or even birth. December is a challenging month for many [...]

By | 2016-12-16T11:57:29+00:00 December 16th, 2016|Uncategorized|0 Comments

Life With Noah: Normal-Mama Fear, or Loss-Mama Fear?

A little over a week ago, someone in my MOMS Club posted something about a Mom's Day Out program at a local church.  For a moment, I got really excited about it: Once a week, for either a half or a full day, I could take Noah to the church and he would do crafts, [...]

By | 2016-12-15T22:17:33+00:00 December 16th, 2016|Parenting After Loss, Uncategorized|0 Comments

Parenting After Loss: Why We Chose a Sleep Monitor Device

Five years ago this winter, I began working in a children’s hospital. Six weeks into my position there, I held a 6 day old little boy as he started to turn blue. I can still see the desperation in his eyes as he gasped to get air but all that came out was a hoarse [...]

By | 2016-10-28T11:23:00+00:00 October 28th, 2016|Parenting After Loss, Uncategorized|0 Comments