Five Lessons on the Birthday of Expecting Sunshine

One thing I have noticed since losing my son, Zachary, is how I appreciate milestones more deeply. I love celebrating the birthdays of my two rainbow babies and my daughter, who was one-year-old when Zach passed away. So too am I grateful to wish my “book baby” a very happy birthday. One year ago today, [...]

Frances Michele’s Birth Story

All throughout my pregnancy with Frances, I was so focused on whether she would be born alive, that I had given very little thought as to HOW she would be born. My husband, Mike, and I had talked a little bit about what that day might look like but I had made no decisions about [...]

By | 2018-03-21T20:45:18+00:00 March 22nd, 2018|Birth, Rainbow Birth Stories|0 Comments

The Healing Power of Music

Music brings people together. Literally – thousands of people gather at concerts – and figuratively. Imagine people all around the world humming to the same soundtrack that you have running through your head. Imagine looking over at the car beside you and seeing the driver’s lips moving to the lyrics playing on your radio. I [...]

Added Anxiety in Pregnancy After Loss, Nicole’s Story

Women who have known loss share their experiences with Pregnancy After Loss Support (PALS) almost every day—to feel connected and to know they’re not alone. Their stories are unique yet also intertwined in grief, joy and hope—hope maybe above all else. We call them our Courageous Mamas. Their stories give us chills and tears and [...]

Oh, How Far We’ve Come

When I think back to what I was like in the early days after my loss, I barely recognize that person. I have grown and changed so much in the seven-and-a-half-years since my second child, Zachary, died in my arms moments after birth. At dinner tonight, my daughter Hannah pulled out a question card from [...]

Evan Roux – My Rainbow is Turning One

As her first birthday is just two weeks away, all I have been thinking about is Evan's birth story. I wish things had gone much smoother than it actually did, but either way this is how she became our Rainbow. My whole pregnancy, I never trusted my body, as I have said many times. I [...]

The Birth Plan: Pregnancy After Loss Style

It was 2:30 on a Monday morning, the Kennedy Expressway was empty, and I was "gently" encouraging Aaron to be safe, but drive faster. We were on our way to Northwestern's Prentice Hospital in Chicago—some 25 miles away—and my contractions were coming on more intensely, about every 5 minutes. I really didn't want to be [...]

By | 2017-11-14T10:21:51+00:00 November 14th, 2017|Birth, Rainbow Birth Stories|1 Comment

Colbie Jane’s Birth Story

Today our precious little rainbow is eight weeks old. Where has the time gone? Between Colbie’s birth, managing two kids under two, packing and moving across country, time just flew by. I will admit that it still doesn't feel real that Colbie is finally here. Life after going through a pregnancy after loss is very [...]

Eli River’s Birth Story

For quite some time, we had the 19th June scheduled for Eli's induction. It would place us at exactly 37 weeks, and felt like a safe time to plan it. Leo had died at 37 plus 1 weeks, and we understand the benefits of getting as close to term as possible for various different outcomes. [...]

By | 2017-07-14T11:01:59+00:00 July 14th, 2017|Birth, Rainbow Birth Stories|1 Comment

Honoring Our Birth Stories

Every woman’s birth stories are unique. These are the experiences we share as we sit around and talk about how our children entered the world. Sometimes these entrances followed our plan, other times not so much. Still, birth stories, whether they end in death or in life, share some common threads. 1. Love is the [...]