Eli River’s Birth Story

For quite some time, we had the 19th June scheduled for Eli's induction. It would place us at exactly 37 weeks, and felt like a safe time to plan it. Leo had died at 37 plus 1 weeks, and we understand the benefits of getting as close to term as possible for various different outcomes. [...]

By | 2017-07-14T11:01:59+00:00 July 14th, 2017|Birth, Rainbow Birth Stories|1 Comment

Honoring Our Birth Stories

Every woman’s birth stories are unique. These are the experiences we share as we sit around and talk about how our children entered the world. Sometimes these entrances followed our plan, other times not so much. Still, birth stories, whether they end in death or in life, share some common threads. 1. Love is the [...]

Branded, Marked & Tattooed

Almost immediately after I lost my first baby at 13 weeks, I wanted a tattoo as a physical reminder of my baby. After the marks of trauma had disappeared and the pain had subsided, the emotional wound remained. I felt marked forever—my heart was broken, never to return to its former shape. But on the [...]

By | 2016-10-13T17:07:51+00:00 August 18th, 2016|Pregnancy, Rainbow Birth Stories, Uncategorized|4 Comments

One Year of PALS

It’s 4 a.m. and I am rocking my three-month-old daughter, who has a slight temperature and congestion. My two-year-old daughter is asleep, as is my husband and our dog. I’m the only one awake in the darkness, save the streetlights. This is how she will sleep, so I will take this watch. A year ago, [...]

Elijah’s Birth Story

After fully waking up at 2am and realizing I had been tossing and turning through painful contractions all night, I decided to go downstairs and make some tea. I turned on the television to distract myself and started timing the contractions. They were a consistent 20 minutes apart and every single one of them made [...]

By | 2016-10-13T17:08:14+00:00 June 29th, 2016|3rd Trimester, Birth, Rainbow Birth Stories|0 Comments

The Healing Power of Storytelling: Expecting Sunshine Documentary

I believe in the healing power of stories. By listening to others and by being open with our own experiences, we can break down the walls of pain and isolation. We can be freed through this vulnerability. We create community by communicating, accepting and celebrating one another’s unique journeys. Through my loss and the new [...]

Loss and Life Afterwards

The journey of loss and healing can often feel like it will never end. I still remember the day my life changed forever. It started out with an unassuming prenatal appointment… My name is Alexis Marie Chute and this is my first monthly column on PALS. I thought this was the perfect opportunity for me [...]

Rainbow Birth Story: Everett

Thinking about delivering our rainbow was a source of anxiety for me the whole pregnancy.  Since we didn’t find out about the extent of Oberon’s health issues until after he was born, I knew I wouldn’t feel like this pregnancy was truly different until baby was out and checked.  I tried to prepare myself for [...]

By | 2016-10-13T17:10:30+00:00 February 9th, 2016|Bump Day Blog, Rainbow Birth Stories|1 Comment

Noah’s Birth Story (Mom’s Perspective)

When I wrote my Week 36 Bump Day Blog entry on November 12th, I had a feeling that I wasn't actually going to make it to 36 weeks: I had been up the entire previous night with contractions.  This wasn't particularly unusual for me, though, as Noah was typically more active at night than during [...]

By | 2016-10-13T17:11:28+00:00 December 4th, 2015|Birth, Bump Day Blog, Rainbow Birth Stories|0 Comments

Noah’s Birth Story, from His Dad’s Perspective

When we made it to November 1st and Kristen was still pregnant, we were thrilled. We've had a planned C-section date of November 24 since maybe week 8 of the pregnancy. That date has a lot of meaning for us because it marks exactly four years since the day that we first met. It also [...]

By | 2016-10-13T17:11:37+00:00 November 27th, 2015|Birth, From Dads Who Know, Rainbow Birth Stories|3 Comments