Dear Healthcare Professionals: Lessons from a Loss Mama

My friend, a fellow loss mama, whose daughter had a fatal diagnosis in the womb was told by the doctor that she wouldn’t want to see her daughter and certainly shouldn’t let her other children meet their sister because “she will look like a monster.” Today, I had a doctors appointment for a sleep study. [...]

The story behind the numbers

There is a piece of paper held on my refrigerator with a magnet. It has been there for nearly 7 years, and every time I go through the jungle of children's artwork, prayer reminders, and Christmas photos that have found their way there, it survives. It tells a story, and it reminds me of three [...]

By |2018-05-31T20:40:35+00:00May 31st, 2018|1st Trimester, Emotional Health, Pregnancy|0 Comments

Your High-Risk Pregnancy After Loss: 10 Tips to Help

If pregnancy after loss is a mind game, a high-risk pregnancy after loss is a mind game on crack. When your pregnancy after loss becomes high-risk, you face a double-whammy of a loss of innocence and heightened anxiety and fear. To put it simply, a high-risk pregnancy is one which requires extra measures to increase [...]

By |2018-05-20T20:41:58+00:00May 20th, 2018|Physical Health, Pregnancy, Tips from PAL Moms, TTC|0 Comments

Rebecca’s Bump Day Blog, Week 36: Exhaustion

I’ve spent the entirety of the last two and a half years trying to conceive, pregnant, or immediately post-partum. During that time, I’ve been pregnant three times for nearly 20 months in total. 20 months pregnant – that’s about equal to the gestation period of an elephant. I recognize that I’m lucky in a number [...]

Celebrating (Surviving) Mother’s Day

Mother’s Day. It’s hard to know what to write about it because I’m not quite sure how to celebrate it as a loss and a rainbow mom. I never knew how many conflicting feelings and complex emotions one day would elicit. But it does. Conventional wisdom says you’re a mother to be celebrated on Mother’s [...]

By |2018-05-09T22:09:42+00:00May 9th, 2018|Parenting After Loss, Pregnancy|0 Comments

What Loss Moms Want Others to Know about Mother’s Day

Guest Post by Melissa Ayala With my first Mother’s Day with my rainbow beside me, and the third with my angel in my heart, I wanted to write about this day. A fellow loss mom posed the question to a group, “If you can say anything about Mother’s Day, what would it be?” And it [...]

By |2018-05-09T21:58:28+00:00May 9th, 2018|Parenting After Loss, Pregnancy|0 Comments

The Pride in Sharing Mother’s Day

My son, C's umbilical cord fell off on Mother's Day 2013. To many, this is a disgusting fact to remember, let alone tell others. But to me, it was so packed with symbolism. You see, he was our first baby we actually were able to bring home after our seven losses. And he came to [...]

By |2018-05-10T09:28:15+00:00May 7th, 2018|Parenting After Loss, Pregnancy|2 Comments

Rebecca’s Bump Day Blog, Week 35: Normalcy

For the vast majority of the last two years, I can tell you almost exactly what any given Friday looked like for me. After having a cup of coffee and before leaving for work, I mix up a batch of pizza dough. I leave the dough to slowly ferment on the counter while my husband [...]

Already a mom

Photo by Ian Schneider on Unsplash I have two living children. My daughter was born after several years of "unexplained infertility". My son was born four years later, after several years of heartbreaking losses in my first and second trimesters. I remember how confusing that Mother's Day was after he was born. My son was a [...]

Wandering Through Sex After Loss

Photo by Toa Heftiba on Unsplash It starts off fun, mysterious. You don't know what to expect. It is everything you thought it would be. It is nothing you thought it would be. As I make the journey through motherhood, loss, and recovery, it changes, transitions as I seem to be. Sex. After our loss, sex [...]