One more way infertility sucks, even when you beat it

The last of my miscarriages was years ago. So it was a surprise that many years and many kids later -- I discover just one more way infertility sucks, even when you beat it.  As I lay down to nurse my toddler to sleep, I scroll absent-mindedly though Facebook, and up an article pops. "This [...]

By |2019-02-17T19:34:58-04:00February 17th, 2019|Loss After Loss, Parenting After Loss|1 Comment

The Intention of Goals

In college, I had my life figured all out...or so I thought. I'd get a job. Move into the city with friends. Establish my career. Marry at 27. And start having the first of my two kids at 30 (so my husband and I could have some time as “just us” first). Well, let’s see [...]

Celebrities that have Opened up about Pregnancy and Child Loss in 2018

With the recent news of Michelle Obama opening up about her struggles with miscarriage and fertility in her new memoir, Becoming, we thought we would acknowledge other loss mamas and papas that have either joined our dreaded club this year or have shared about their long time membership to our club in 2018.   View [...]

By |2018-12-30T15:33:26-04:00December 30th, 2018|Loss After Loss, Pregnancy|0 Comments

Pregnancy After Loss Support’s Most-Read Articles of 2018

What a year it's been at PALS (Pregnancy After Loss Support)! It was a year of tremendous growth. We added Meet-Up locations, continued to provide online support to Courageous PAL Mamas, exhibited at perinatal conferences, and raised over $23,000 to continue to support and advocate for the pregnancy after loss community. One of the ways [...]

I had a blighted ovum

I had a blighted ovum. What the heck is that anyway? This isn’t actually a medical term, but is used commonly to describe what happens when sperm meets egg and…nothing. A little egg sac develops, but nothing inside. I can’t say it was a baby, because it most definitely wasn’t. No heartbeat. No growth. Nothing [...]

When you Miscarry your Rainbow Baby

When you've lost a baby at any time during or after pregnancy, expecting a child again is such a hard balance of hope and fear. And sometimes, no matter how much you don't deserve it, you miscarry your rainbow baby. Here's one mom's experience when the worst happened ... and then happened again.  "I don't [...]

By |2018-09-16T21:50:10-04:00September 16th, 2018|Loss After Loss, Pregnancy|0 Comments

Don’t Shame Us for Trying (Again)

You see those faces in the photo? That there, is pure joy. Those are the faces of relief, disbelief and excitement. They are of perseverance and resilience, stubbornness and determination. Those faces—our faces—are the reason we kept pushing through seven losses, to bring home our first child. Truth be told, there was a time we [...]

Already a mom

Photo by Ian Schneider on Unsplash I have two living children. My daughter was born after several years of "unexplained infertility". My son was born four years later, after several years of heartbreaking losses in my first and second trimesters. I remember how confusing that Mother's Day was after he was born. My son was a [...]

Pregnancy After Loss (PAL) Awareness Photo Challenge 2018

Welcome to Pregnancy After Loss (PAL) Awareness Month Photo Challenge, March 2018. What is Pregnancy After Loss Awareness Month? In the world of pregnancy after loss there is a story of hope about a precious new life, and it’s the story of the rainbow baby. It is based on the understanding that the beauty of the [...]

Dear Mama Facing Another Loss

Dear Mama Facing Another Loss, You are strong. You are brave. You are resilient. You have faced the worst that life can throw at you, conquered it, and now you are facing the unimaginable yet again. Even though at time it may feel like it, you are not alone though. I have had three losses, [...]