Life, Intensified

Life with an infant is so much more focused than life without.  As Nigel the guitarist said in the movie 'Spinal Tap', my life 'goes to eleven' now. Every moment with our son, Noah, is irreplaceable. Each day he's a little bit bigger and a little more capable than the day before, so each day [...]

This Pain Will Be Useful To You

This holiday season will mark five years since we lost Em. It's with bewilderment that I can even write that sentence. Five years. That Halloween, we sat around as kids came to the door in anticipation of each costume. We would laugh and picture Em in all of them. We'd talk about our costumes from [...]

By | 2016-10-13T17:11:36+00:00 December 3rd, 2015|From Dads Who Know, Parenting After Loss|0 Comments

Noah’s Birth Story, from His Dad’s Perspective

When we made it to November 1st and Kristen was still pregnant, we were thrilled. We've had a planned C-section date of November 24 since maybe week 8 of the pregnancy. That date has a lot of meaning for us because it marks exactly four years since the day that we first met. It also [...]

By | 2016-10-13T17:11:37+00:00 November 27th, 2015|Birth, From Dads Who Know, Rainbow Birth Stories|3 Comments

The Juggling Act

I didn't expect to be at the end of October with a still-pregnant-wife. Our doctors didn't expect that, either. But here we are. Kristen is still pregnant, Noah is still growing. Life feels a little like this right now. Only, I would never wear pants like that. At this point, I'm ready for [...]

By | 2016-10-13T17:12:15+00:00 October 30th, 2015|3rd Trimester, From Dads Who Know|0 Comments

Most of the time, I don’t have time to be scared

Because my wife, Kristen, is now on bed rest, my life has gotten busier. Immediately after she went on bed rest, I made some changes at work and went on semi-permanent night-shift. This suits me better because I'm a natural night owl. If I'm going to work and take care of things around the house, [...]

By | 2016-10-13T17:13:08+00:00 September 25th, 2015|2nd Trimester, From Dads Who Know|0 Comments

Consumed By Fear

I was never prepared for the part of parenthood that would force me to confront being consumed by fear on a daily basis. I am sure that fear is a constant state of being for parents who have never faced a loss of their child, but it is so prevalent after you do experience a [...]

By | 2016-10-13T17:13:40+00:00 September 2nd, 2015|From Dads Who Know, Parenting After Loss|2 Comments

New Territory

This past month has been a rather emotional one for me and Kristen. We are now past two important days: the one year anniversary of William's death and the gestational age in this current pregnancy where we lost William. Now we are almost at 25 weeks along with Noah. This means that our worries are [...]

By | 2016-10-13T17:13:51+00:00 August 21st, 2015|From Dads Who Know, Uncategorized|0 Comments

Loving and Grieving

  Kristen and I are remembering to celebrate Noah even as we still grieve for William. Here we are at Noah's gender reveal. At this time a year ago, my wife Kristen and I were thrilled to be expecting our first son, William. Just ten days after a perfect anatomy scan, William died. [...]

By | 2016-10-13T17:14:16+00:00 July 24th, 2015|From Dads Who Know|0 Comments

The Greatest Insecurity

It is very difficult to handle any holiday after you experience the loss of your child. However, the holiday that bears the title of what you wanted to be, of what you are, and of what you are grieving is a whole another issue. For me, I felt that it was especially hard because my [...]

By | 2016-10-13T17:15:20+00:00 June 21st, 2015|From Dads Who Know, Parenting After Loss|0 Comments

8 Tips From A Doula For Partners

Your child's birth is a special date. You will meet your baby and fall in love all over again. You will witness the amazing power of your partner's body. And you might be challenged to remember to do everything 'right'. Listed below are some simple suggestions for you to plan around and to remember for [...]