Curated Grief

Photo by Antenna on Unsplash While pregnancy and infant loss is still considered a taboo topic in many situations, there has been a lot of work done to bring awareness and empathy. There are people writing books, making art, and sharing stories about their children and their grief. This is a very good thing. Like almost [...]

By | 2018-01-11T18:10:48+00:00 January 11th, 2018|Emotional Health|0 Comments

Evan Roux – My Rainbow is Turning One

As her first birthday is just two weeks away, all I have been thinking about is Evan's birth story. I wish things had gone much smoother than it actually did, but either way this is how she became our Rainbow. My whole pregnancy, I never trusted my body, as I have said many times. I [...]

From Black and White to Color

Grief leaches the color from daily life. Grief is monochromatic. A Seattle-gray day. The sameness can feel endless. Wake up, be smacked by the reality of your grief, crawl through the day, go to sleep, start over. Same ol’, same ol’. You are missing your baby. Yes. Yes, you are. And you will tomorrow, too. [...]

By | 2018-01-02T20:42:56+00:00 January 2nd, 2018|Emotional Health, From Professionals|0 Comments

Coping With Grief–What to Actually Do

*Photo by Kinga Cichewicz on Unsplash My clients often ask me, “What should I do? Do you have any strategies you can share for how to cope with my grief?” The answer is complicated. For me, this question is deeper than it appears. The grieving client is asking, ”How can I feel less bad?” Or, more [...]

By | 2017-12-25T22:28:43+00:00 December 25th, 2017|Emotional Health, From Professionals|0 Comments

Christmas: A Trigger & a Choice

While my pregnancy after loss journey has brought me much joy, I still find Christmas a trigger season. I know it is a hard time for many grievers. It’s a sad paradox, really; a time so intent that we be merry is in fact a source of sadness for some. My son, Zachary, was due [...]

By | 2017-12-20T09:02:25+00:00 December 20th, 2017|Emotional Health, Parenting After Loss|0 Comments

When you just can’t let go of the fear after loss

  I thought it would be easier once she was here. Turns out . . . I couldn't let go of the fear after loss. I never expected to get this far. Even after our baby hung on ultrasound after ultrasound, my previous pregnancy losses made me guard my heart. Every thought of the future [...]

By | 2017-12-17T21:33:57+00:00 December 17th, 2017|Emotional Health, Parenting After Loss, Physical Health|0 Comments

Being Pregnant after Loss for the Holidays

Being pregnant during the holiday season comes with its own ups and downs. The highlights might include feeling a little freer to indulge in sweets, sharing the news (in a creative way) with family, or having extra time to take off from the normal stresses of life (and a PAL). However, some of these things [...]

How my Miscarriages have Affected my Career

I have been a nurse for six years now, working with several different types of patients, and had never really found the type of nursing I wanted to stay with for my future. I had never even considered Maternal and Infant Health before I had our first daughter, Charlie, but my birth experience was so [...]

By | 2017-12-14T10:44:55+00:00 December 6th, 2017|Emotional Health, From Professionals|0 Comments

A Pregnancy After Loss Christmas Story

I knew the first Christmas after we lost our baby would be an especially hard one. A year earlier, I had been in my second trimester of pregnancy and had been hopeful that we would be celebrating our baby’s first Christmas the next year. But the following Christmas did not turn out as planned. Instead [...]

By | 2017-12-04T21:09:25+00:00 December 4th, 2017|Emotional Health, Pregnancy|0 Comments

Pregnant after Loss for the Holidays

I've been pregnant for Christmas three times. The first time was with my oldest daughter, who is now nine. She was conceived after several years of trying and hoping and praying. My due date was late January, so I was "great with child" that December, and greatly enjoyed the attention and the intimate connection I felt [...]

By | 2017-11-30T21:16:08+00:00 November 30th, 2017|25 weeks, Emotional Health, Pregnancy|0 Comments