What if it works?

So much of a pregnancy after loss is spent with the all consuming thought: what if it doesn’t work this time too? That thought can linger in the recesses of a person’s mind and grow louder. It tends to crescendo right before a sonogram or a doctor’s appointment, and then fades dramatically once there is [...]

By | 2017-11-16T17:27:46+00:00 November 16th, 2017|Emotional Health, From Professionals, Pregnancy|0 Comments

Motherhood After Loss

    We lost our first baby, who we named Lavender, when I was 13 weeks pregnant. There were no obvious reasons as to why I lost my baby. I was young. I was healthy. Everything seemed to fine, until suddenly, everything wasn’t fine. I became pregnant again soon after our loss. That pregnancy was [...]

By | 2017-11-16T00:32:14+00:00 November 16th, 2017|13weeks, Emotional Health, Parenting After Loss|0 Comments

The Emotional Weather of a Pregnancy After Loss

Pregnancy after loss can seem like a long period of unpredictable weather, unpredictable emotional weather that is. With loss comes a long season of grief, a season where the fog doesn’t lift, the sun doesn’t shine and life seems to be raining down on us. My emotional weather remained consistent as I navigated life after [...]

By | 2017-11-07T07:33:24+00:00 November 7th, 2017|Emotional Health, Pregnancy|2 Comments

When you’re Scared of Ultrasounds

The dreaded ultrasound machine I need to have an ultrasound. I’m not pregnant, and it’s for an issue totally not related to my pregnancies, but I’m still uncomfortable. Even though my appointment isn’t until Wednesday, I’m anxious, and having trouble sleeping. I know there’s nothing to be scared of. An ultrasound isn’t painful. [...]

By | 2017-11-05T21:21:56+00:00 November 5th, 2017|Emotional Health, Physical Health|1 Comment

A Different Kind of Holiday Season

It's hard to believe my daughter, my rainbow, is 16 months old already. There are days that it feels like I was pregnant yesterday, crippled with fear but choosing hope in every single milestone. Then there are days where it feels like she has been here all along. As if I barely can recall a [...]

By | 2017-10-30T21:27:10+00:00 October 30th, 2017|Emotional Health, Parenting After Loss|0 Comments

8 Ways to Remember your Loss or Celebrate Your Angel’s Birth

Losing a baby is never easy. But remembering the baby can be just as intense. It is not uncommon for families to struggle to find ways to honor their little ones memory on their anniversary or other special days. Here are a list of suggestions that have worked for others. I share them and encourage [...]

By | 2017-10-25T09:14:53+00:00 October 25th, 2017|Emotional Health, From Professionals|0 Comments

When Breastfeeding Sucks: D-MER After Loss

The breastfeeding relationship can be one of great significance to the mother. When there has been a pregnancy or neonatal loss, breastfeeding one’s subsequent child can take on even more meaning. But when the mother encounters difficulties, expected or unexpected, there is a potential for psychological consequences, including depression, anxiety, low self-esteem, and a subjective [...]

5 Important Things to Know About Recurrent Miscarriage

1. First and most important, miscarriage is never your fault. Never ever. There is a reason. We just may not ever figure out what it is. One miscarriage is difficult and heartbreaking. Recurrent miscarriages are confusing and devastating. The timing of a miscarriage may suggest different causes. Kristi Bothur at the blog This Side of Heaven, [...]

Permission to Have a Good Day

In the world of loss and subsequent pregnancies, we moms often deal with guilt. There's consuming sadness that our family at face-value doesn't match what it is at heart-value. There's sometimes a nagging heaviness that we could've done something differently or should've known sooner. There's a new element of motherhood that a majority of the [...]

By | 2017-10-19T08:12:25+00:00 October 19th, 2017|Emotional Health, Pregnancy|0 Comments

You Deserve Support

After our second miscarriage, I had a really hard time recovering. The first one was hard enough. Since it "never" happens, how could I even fathom it happening a second time to us? That was impossible, I thought, so I think it hit me in the gut twice as hard. I had no idea what [...]

By | 2017-10-10T21:52:19+00:00 October 10th, 2017|Emotional Health, Parenting After Loss|0 Comments