“You Got Your Boy!” Gender and Spirit in Pregnancy After Loss

Tracy with her second rainbow, Holden Matthew My firstborn was stillborn and his name was Brayden. When the doctor had told us his gender at an ultrasound appointment just weeks earlier, my husband Matt and I looked at each other and smiled. So many hopes and dreams had filled that moment. I spoke [...]

Rebecca’s Bump Day Blog, Week 36: Exhaustion

I’ve spent the entirety of the last two and a half years trying to conceive, pregnant, or immediately post-partum. During that time, I’ve been pregnant three times for nearly 20 months in total. 20 months pregnant – that’s about equal to the gestation period of an elephant. I recognize that I’m lucky in a number [...]

Dear Mama, Trying to Control the Uncontrollable After Loss

Dear Mama, Trying to Control the Uncontrollable After Loss, I find comfort in trying to control very tiny things that might matter little to someone else. Keeping a clean home when possible. Things in just their right spot. When I get home, things need to be a certain way before I can truly relax. Not [...]

Laura’s Bump Day Blog, Week 39 / Week 1 – Welcome Home, Baby: Our Birth Story

What a difference a week makes. One week ago, I posted that I had come to terms with the decision that it was baby-day. I had been wrangling with the thought for weeks – could I patiently wait for him to come on his own? I had already made it one week longer than I [...]

By |2017-10-30T16:26:42-04:00October 30th, 2017|Birth, Bump Day Blog, Courageous Mama|0 Comments

Dear Mama…She Was Worth It

Dear Mama, It’s harder than you thought, and that’s okay. You’re allowed to struggle and question what is happening. You’re allowed to have bad days, and days you wish would just end. You’re allowed to be human. You had 9+ months of imagining what it’d be like to finally bring a baby home, and you [...]

Courageous Mama for Cesarean Awareness 2016

Meet Our Courageous Mama for Cesarean Awareness Month... Danielle Reeder  I am a courageous mama because... Last year, on April 12, 2015 my husband and I lost our first daughter to stillbirth, just 9 days before she was due. I hadn't felt her move that day and got out our home heart monitor and couldn't [...]

Courageous Mama of the Month of April 2016

Courageous Mama of the Month ofApril 2016 is … Henderson Lafond! I am a courageous mama because I am the mother of two and one of my children isn’t here. This is a road I did not choose to take and never thought I would travel, but here I am. My son was born July [...]

By |2016-10-13T17:09:01-04:00April 26th, 2016|Courageous Mama, Emotional Health|0 Comments

C-sections: Real Birth, Real Courage

Getting prepped for my 3rd c-section Since this month is Cesarean Awareness Month, I thought it was a perfect time to write about c-section mamas and how they are full of beauty and courage, especially those mamas in our pregnancy after loss community.  You've experienced the worst tragedy possible, and you would make [...]

By |2016-10-13T17:09:12-04:00April 21st, 2016|Birth, Courageous Mama, Pregnancy|2 Comments

The Healing Power of Storytelling: Expecting Sunshine Documentary

I believe in the healing power of stories. By listening to others and by being open with our own experiences, we can break down the walls of pain and isolation. We can be freed through this vulnerability. We create community by communicating, accepting and celebrating one another’s unique journeys. Through my loss and the new [...]

Don’t Wish Your Pregnancy Away

The hardest thing to do as a pregnant woman after loss, is being a pregnant woman after loss. It's not one thing. It's everything. I spent my entire 6th pregnancy somewhere between wonder and hope, but mostly in fear. Looking back now, knowing it was likely my last, I wish I would've enjoyed it more. Yes, I [...]