Kasey’s Bump Day Blog, Week 20: One Year

Anniversary. Birthday. Stillbirth day. The day I delivered him. I am not sure what to call it. I am writing this post on Danny’s delivery date at 19 weeks, 4 days pregnant. Monday when this post is published I will be 20 weeks, 3 days pregnant and just a few days away from my anatomy [...]

By |2018-10-14T21:04:46+00:00October 14th, 2018|20weeks, 2nd Trimester, Bump Day Blog|0 Comments

Kasey’s Bump Day Blog, Week 19: Vulnerable Connection

This past week we had another good appointment and ultrasound. I am continually amazed by the incredible support of the staff at my clinic. My doctors, nurses, and ultrasound techs are all wonderful. They are so aware of the emotional toll that these two losses have had on Eric and me, and they are willing [...]

By |2018-10-07T19:05:16+00:00October 7th, 2018|19weeks, 2nd Trimester, Bump Day Blog|0 Comments

Our Eddy’s Birth Story

Late one Monday night, I found myself anxiously wandering through the grocery store trying to kill some time. I had a mild headache and went to the store to check my blood pressure. The first reading was slightly elevated – 135/85 – so I walked around taking deep breaths and waiting to recheck. The second [...]

By |2018-10-04T20:07:10+00:00October 4th, 2018|3rd Trimester, Bump Day Blog, Pregnancy|3 Comments

Kasey’s Bump Day Blog, Week 18: Grateful

This past week I was at a psychologists’ conference in Minneapolis (hence my photo this week from the sculpture garden in Minneapolis).  I am walking away from this conference feeling grateful for this warm, supportive environment focused on connecting over shared experiences and getting to know people for who they are. This is my third [...]

By |2018-09-30T20:07:02+00:00September 30th, 2018|18weeks, 2nd Trimester, Bump Day Blog, Pregnancy|0 Comments

Kasey’s Bump Day Blog, Week 17: Waiting

Pregnancy after loss is all about waiting. Pregnancy in general is a time of preparing and waiting for a baby to arrive. In pregnancy after loss, though, this waiting is not about waiting until the time that your baby is finally ready to join you, it is waiting to find out whether this baby will [...]

Kasey’s Bump Day Blog, Week 16: Different Pregnancy, Same Fear

I keep feeling that others want my husband and I to have the “different pregnancy, different baby, different outcome” philosophy with this pregnancy. While I understand that mantra and try hold onto it, I have been here before. I truly believed that during my second pregnancy. I believed we would bring home a healthy baby [...]

By |2018-09-16T21:43:05+00:00September 16th, 2018|16weeks, 2nd Trimester, Bump Day Blog, Pregnancy|0 Comments

Kasey’s Bump Day Blog, Week 15: Two Years and Counting

My life is measured in school years. I was in school every year of my life from when I began preschool until I was 27 years-old. My husband is a high school teacher, and I work at a university. My life ebbs and flows based on the academic calendar. Two years ago, at the start [...]

By |2018-09-09T17:14:01+00:00September 9th, 2018|15weeks, Bump Day Blog, Pregnancy|2 Comments

Rebecca’s Bump Day Blog, Week 36: Exhaustion

I’ve spent the entirety of the last two and a half years trying to conceive, pregnant, or immediately post-partum. During that time, I’ve been pregnant three times for nearly 20 months in total. 20 months pregnant – that’s about equal to the gestation period of an elephant. I recognize that I’m lucky in a number [...]

Rebecca’s Bump Day Blog, Week 35: Normalcy

For the vast majority of the last two years, I can tell you almost exactly what any given Friday looked like for me. After having a cup of coffee and before leaving for work, I mix up a batch of pizza dough. I leave the dough to slowly ferment on the counter while my husband [...]

Rebecca’s Bump Day Blog, Week 34: Birth Plan

Giving birth is going to be rough. The anticipation of labor and delivery is already difficult. For us, birth is our point of loss. Concern while the baby was crowning, a quick episiotomy, and an unexpectedly silent baby on my chest were the first moments we knew something was wrong. Facing the end of birth [...]