Laura’s Bump Day Blog, Week 38 – When I Can’t Sleep, It’s Time.

It’s 3:30am. My eyes flicker open, for the 3rd time this week. I sneak a peek at the clock. Dammit, 3:30 again. What is it with this time? I lay quietly, hands on my belly, immediately waiting for the gentle nudges of a sleeping baby also turning inside me. The bit of reassurance I’ll need [...]

By | 2017-10-23T12:33:40+00:00 October 23rd, 2017|3rd Trimester, Birth, Bump Day Blog, Pregnancy|1 Comment

Laura’s Bump Day Blog, Week 37 – Uncharted Territory

Tomorrow I'll officially be the most pregnant I've ever been. With my first rainbow, I hit that milestone at 35+3, and it was a definitely a tough one, because it coincided with the day we lost our daughter. Hitting 37+1 is tough in a different way - it's hard because it's the day that everyone [...]

By | 2017-10-16T16:45:17+00:00 October 16th, 2017|3rd Trimester, Bump Day Blog|0 Comments

Don’t Sleep on your Back: a report from ISA Cork

Amulets for Nate and Sam The International Stillbirth Alliance (ISA) Conference was going to be on September 23-24th. I saw that as a sign. This was going to fall on Nate and Sam’s 10th birthday. I had been to the previous ISA conference, in Vancouver in 2015. It was so well organized and [...]

Laura’s Bump Day Blog, Week 35 – Her Week

35 weeks. I’ve learned by now that this is about the time that you start thinking baby could come anytime, even though you know they need a few more weeks. So close, every kick feels like they’re working their way out, every cramp you wonder if it’s a contraction. So when Layla dropped a few [...]

By | 2017-10-02T08:24:33+00:00 October 2nd, 2017|3rd Trimester, Bump Day Blog|2 Comments

Laura’s Bump Day Blog, Week 34 – Head vs. Heart

They say when you lose a child, you lose not only that child, but the hopes and dreams that you held for that child. I didn’t know then just how all-encompassing those hopes and dreams would be. I realized later that I lost not only hopes and dreams we held for Layla, but I lost [...]

By | 2017-09-25T07:47:18+00:00 September 25th, 2017|3rd Trimester, Bump Day Blog|0 Comments

Laura’s Bump Day Blog, Week 33 – Is It All Uphill or Downhill from Here?

This last week started the routine I became so familiar with in my first rainbow pregnancy. Weekly visit to the MFM, onto the monitors, drink some ice water. I’ve learned to read the strips, I joke with the nurses – I like my new MFM’s setup, in a room with several other NST chairs and [...]

By | 2017-09-18T09:11:23+00:00 September 18th, 2017|33weeks, 3rd Trimester, Bump Day Blog|0 Comments

Mikey’s Bump Day Blog, Week 38: To My Precious Rainbow Baby

To my precious Rainbow Baby: “If you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you could say to this mountain ‘Move from here to there’ and it WILL move. Nothing will be impossible for you.” – Matthew 17:20 For the past 268 days, you’ve grown from the size of a little mustard to seed [...]

By | 2017-09-12T12:20:32+00:00 September 12th, 2017|3rd Trimester, Bump Day Blog, Pregnancy|0 Comments

The Importance of Pals During PAL

The overwhelm has been big lately. Between working full time, parenting 3 and 4 year old boys, the exhaustion of the 3rd trimester, and the extra anxiety that comes along with being pregnant after loss (PAL), there has been little time for me to focus on me. Truth be told, I've never been good about [...]

By | 2017-09-12T08:38:21+00:00 September 12th, 2017|3rd Trimester, Emotional Health, Pregnancy|1 Comment

Laura’s Bump Day Blog, Week 32 – The Wall of Guilt

The last week has been hard. Really, really hard. I’ve hit that point in pregnancy – the one most moms experience, but the one that feels oh so different when you’re PAL. I’ve hit the wall. I’m uncomfortable. All the pillows are on the bed. Baby boy manages to kick my bladder and my ribs [...]

By | 2017-09-11T14:49:02+00:00 September 11th, 2017|3rd Trimester, Bump Day Blog|0 Comments

Mikey’s Bump Day Blog, Week 37: Hopeful for a Rainbow After the Storm

In less than two weeks, life is going to be very different for us. For the most part, I’ve been positive about having our rainbow baby. It’s crazy to think that after all the heart break, tears, waiting, hope, and never giving up, we may be lucky enough to leave the hospital with a baby [...]

By | 2017-09-05T11:01:28+00:00 September 5th, 2017|3rd Trimester, Bump Day Blog, Pregnancy|0 Comments