Today, I thought I was miscarrying…

Today, I thought I was miscarrying… … because I didn’t feel any morning sickness. … because I felt too sick, and really fatigued. … because I had intermittent back pain. … because I swore the gush of mucus I just felt was blood. … because I spotted. … because I’m “advanced maternal age” and fear [...]

By |2018-09-12T19:56:24+00:00September 12th, 2018|1st Trimester, Pregnancy|0 Comments

Finding an OB After Pregnancy Loss: 8 Ways You Need Their Support

Dear OB after pregnancy loss, Before we make this “relationship” official, I have a confession. I know my paperwork has already informed you that my number of pregnancies does not equal the number of babies who made it to viability. This gravida/parity equation is simple to read, but carries nuances that can be hard to [...]

By |2018-08-19T19:14:02+00:00August 19th, 2018|1st Trimester, For Professionals, Pregnancy, TTC|0 Comments

The Moment You Find Out There’s Going to Be Another Baby…

You stare down at the pregnancy test. It confirms - as the others you took before it- that you’re pregnant again. All sorts of emotions bubble to the surface. Joy, excitement, overwhelming love – there’s going to be a another baby! There’s relief. You did it. You conceived! But that’s also accompanied by panic, trepidation, and overwhelming fear. Nothing’s [...]

By |2018-08-08T21:03:56+00:00August 8th, 2018|1st Trimester, Pregnancy|1 Comment

Thank You for Sharing your Stories through #IAmPALS

Photo of "Stitch" taken by Margaret Belanger I have the incredible honor of working with loss mamas from all over the world. They entrust me with their stories, and I consider it one of the greatest privileges of my life to hold those stories and their babies (living and not) with them. Last [...]

“In This Moment, Everything is Okay” and other Helpful Pregnancy After Loss Affirmations

When you’re pregnant again after loss (PAL), it’s so easy to get inside your head. You’ve been introduced to the “baby loss world” and you have suddenly become aware of the many ways a baby can die during pregnancy. It’s so easy to go to a bad place very quickly. For me, affirmations were so [...]

Pregnant and Pessimistic

During my pregnancy after loss, I seemed to be surrounded by people who had the “glass-half-full” mentality. They still believed that pregnancy guaranteed a living baby and they felt optimistic that nothing would go wrong. These people didn't waste any time congratulating me on what they were certain would be a problem-free pregnancy. They were [...]

The story behind the numbers

There is a piece of paper held on my refrigerator with a magnet. It has been there for nearly 7 years, and every time I go through the jungle of children's artwork, prayer reminders, and Christmas photos that have found their way there, it survives. It tells a story, and it reminds me of three [...]

By |2018-05-31T20:40:35+00:00May 31st, 2018|1st Trimester, Emotional Health, Pregnancy|0 Comments

Already a mom

Photo by Ian Schneider on Unsplash I have two living children. My daughter was born after several years of "unexplained infertility". My son was born four years later, after several years of heartbreaking losses in my first and second trimesters. I remember how confusing that Mother's Day was after he was born. My son was a [...]

Supporting the Mama Who is Pregnant After Loss on Mother’s Day

Mother's Day can be difficult as a mama who is pregnant after loss. It's a day in which she is reminded of what she does not have. The sight of a newborn cradled in its mother's arms reminds her of the baby she never held. The social media images of mothers with their children remind [...]

By |2018-04-30T21:03:16+00:00April 30th, 2018|1st Trimester, 2nd Trimester, 3rd Trimester, Pregnancy|0 Comments

The 5 Things I Hope You Remember During Your Pregnancy after Loss Journey

The pregnancy after loss journey is...complicated.  It is every emotion that you have ever felt and they are all struggling to exist together.  You may feel like you are faced with an ever-growing list of things to do and remember. I know how that feels.  So, when it all feels too daunting and you doubt [...]