The “Last Chance” Pregnancy

Photo by Keenan Constance on Unsplash The place in time for when a pregnancy after loss occurs differs for each of us. For some, the loss occurred as part of the first pregnancy experience. Others might have had several children before experiencing loss. There can seem to be a lopsidedness in sharing the stories of loss [...]

Pregnancy After Loss Support’s Most-Read Articles of 2017

Photo by Juja Han on Unsplash What a year it's been at PALS (Pregnancy After Loss Support)! We became a 501(c)3 nonprofit organization this summer and launched the new PALS MeetUps, all while continuing all of our other support services. We look forward to reaching even more Courageous Mamas in 2018! One of the ways we support [...]

Being Pregnant after Loss for the Holidays

Being pregnant during the holiday season comes with its own ups and downs. The highlights might include feeling a little freer to indulge in sweets, sharing the news (in a creative way) with family, or having extra time to take off from the normal stresses of life (and a PAL). However, some of these things [...]

Nina’s Bump Day Blog, Week 9 – Inconclusive

That is not what I wanted to hear at my 8 week check up with my doctor. The transvaginal ultrasound measurements were not on target. The fetal pole was measuring at about 6.5 weeks, and there was no heartbeat. Because not everyone gets their dates right, there is always a possibility that all is well. [...]

By | 2017-12-05T16:38:23+00:00 December 4th, 2017|1st Trimester, Bump Day Blog|0 Comments

Nina’s Bump Day Blog, Week 8 – Wake Me Up When December Ends

These are authentic nineties mix tapes pirated from the radio. Some of my earliest design work on the cases - I was always good with highlighters. All my emotions as a teenager were funneled into mix tapes. Actual tapes - I was a teen in the early 90's. (Did I mention I am of [...]

By | 2017-11-27T22:15:31+00:00 November 27th, 2017|1st Trimester, Bump Day Blog|2 Comments

Nina’s Bump Day Blog, Week 7 – Living with Uncertainty

All the evidence I have tells me I am pregnant, but it is not enough. After two losses where my body continued to keep calm and carry on as if all was well while the pregnancy went awry, I don’t trust the signals my body is giving me. My first loss was a missed miscarriage [...]

By | 2017-11-27T17:55:38+00:00 November 20th, 2017|1st Trimester, Bump Day Blog|0 Comments

5 Things to Do for Yourself After a Miscarriage

After my miscarriages, my whole world turned upside down. My heart, my mind and my body had changed—and I really didn’t know what my new normal looked like. In the midst of all the pain and unknowns, I knew I needed to take care of myself and create a safe place to grieve and heal. [...]

By | 2017-09-21T08:52:28+00:00 September 21st, 2017|1st Trimester, 2nd Trimester|0 Comments

Pregnancy after Loss as a See-Saw

As a kid, a popular playground activity was the see-saw: a simplistic device that promotes relationships and excitement. We would take turns going up and down in either a rhythmic way or erratically to promote the most thrills. I loved the metronome-like quality of it as it was almost hypnotic for me. Recently, I began [...]

When It Happens Again

It was during an early morning visit to the bathroom that I realized I had lost my first baby. I was bleeding and it was red—the 2 things that bring terror to a pregnant woman’s heart. That moment became a snapshot that was burned into my memory—holding the blood-soaked toilet paper. When I became pregnant [...]

By | 2017-08-17T07:18:31+00:00 August 17th, 2017|1st Trimester, Loss After Loss, Pregnancy|2 Comments

“A Person’s A Person No Matter How Small,” Dr Seuss – My First Trimester Loss

I was six weeks along. There was not yet a gasp and smile at the sound of the heartbeat. There was not yet a tear at the first sight of the bean on the ultrasound. There was not yet a name assigned. There was no cramping. There was just blood. In the middle of the [...]