Tracy McLaughlin Jaskot

About Tracy McLaughlin Jaskot

Tracy McLaughlin Jaskot is an elementary educator in Massachusetts and mom to three children - her angel son Brayden, her rainbow daughter Ainsley Hope, and her second rainbow due in April 2018. She and her husband, Matt, lost their first son Brayden at 24 weeks gestation in May 2014 due to undiagnosed severe pre-eclampsia which led to a complete concealed placental abruption. Tracy has learned and grown from his stillbirth in more ways than she could have ever imagined. The PALS community has been vital in her subsequent pregnancies, shifting her experience from understandable anxiety to embracing pregnancy with hope.

Tracy’s Bump Day Blog, Week 34: Baby Hiccups

As I get closer to my due date and even closer to my planned C-section - my first, due to a risk of uterine rupture - my nerves and anxiety are increasing exponentially. I am so excited to meet this child but with every positive moment of hope comes its counter-thought of, “please don’t lose [...]

By | 2018-03-12T15:36:04+00:00 March 12th, 2018|3rd Trimester, Bump Day Blog, Pregnancy|0 Comments

Tracy’s Bump Day Blog, Week 33: She’ll Never Know

Tracy's first rainbow, Ainsley Hope My toddler rainbow daughter was napping, and the way her top lip overlapped her bottom one, an effect created as she shifted slowly into sleep from sitting up watching her beloved Paw Patrol to partially sitting up to leaning over peacefully onto some pillows, gave me an overwhelming [...]

Tracy’s Bump Day Blog, Week 32: Movement

This pregnancy has been going relatively smoothly so far. I have excellent care, more trust in this process and myself, and am seen often by my high-risk doctor. The likelihood of missing something seems pretty low. Our plan was to add non-stress tests to my weekly appointments starting at 32 weeks. I am 32 weeks [...]

By | 2018-02-26T21:51:52+00:00 February 26th, 2018|3rd Trimester, Bump Day Blog, Pregnancy|0 Comments

Tracy’s Bump Day Blog, Week 31: A Pre-Conception Mantra

31 Weeks I am making my body a happy and healthy place for this next baby. I started saying this mantra to myself long before our baby was even conceived. It guided me when I wasn’t sure we would be lucky enough to be here: 31 weeks pregnant with baby number three after [...]

By | 2018-02-19T21:04:59+00:00 February 19th, 2018|3rd Trimester, Bump Day Blog, Pregnancy, TTC|0 Comments

Dear Mama, Trying to Control the Uncontrollable After Loss

Dear Mama, Trying to Control the Uncontrollable After Loss, I find comfort in trying to control very tiny things that might matter little to someone else. Keeping a clean home when possible. Things in just their right spot. When I get home, things need to be a certain way before I can truly relax. Not [...]

Tracy’s Bump Day Blog, Week 29: ‘Me Next, Please:’ What I Lost and Try to Reclaim in a Pregnancy after Loss

When I was pregnant with my first in 2014, I took my then 11-year-old niece shopping. In a store at the mall, I saw a mom who was likely younger than me. I was 31 years old at the time. I saw her for just a moment but it was long enough to peek at [...]

By | 2018-02-06T08:43:30+00:00 February 5th, 2018|3rd Trimester, Bump Day Blog, Pregnancy|0 Comments

Tracy’s Bump Day Blog, Week 28: The ‘Home Stretch’ Trimester

Entering the third trimester feels surreal when so much of my identity when I’m pregnant is tied to a second trimester loss. With my first rainbow I thought that once I got past my previous point of loss, 24 weeks, I would feel better. But instead I felt a little bit out of control. I [...]

By | 2018-01-29T20:57:39+00:00 January 29th, 2018|28weeks, 3rd Trimester, Bump Day Blog, Pregnancy|0 Comments

Tracy’s Bump Day Blog, Week 27: The Difference That Great Care Makes

The OB practice that I went to for my first pregnancy was not a good match for me, but I wouldn’t really know this until my son was stillborn and I later had top-notch care during my subsequent high-risk pregnancies. In my first pregnancy I felt unheard but choiceless. I now know that I could [...]

By | 2018-01-22T20:37:48+00:00 January 22nd, 2018|3rd Trimester, Bump Day Blog|0 Comments

Tracy’s Bump Day Blog, Week 26: Repeating Sweet Rituals with a New Pregnancy

At 26 weeks I’m starting to become more and more baby-focused as opposed to pregnancy-focused. I spent my first trimester constantly checking for signs that I was indeed pregnant and staying pregnant, taking countless home pregnancy tests between my earliest appointments. I was so excited but afraid to let myself be so excited. Then there [...]

By | 2018-01-15T20:46:34+00:00 January 15th, 2018|26weeks, 2nd Trimester, Bump Day Blog|1 Comment

Tracy’s Bump Day Blog, Week 25: Reaching 25 Weeks

I am 25 weeks pregnant with my third child. Reading this sentence alone could be unremarkable for some, but it could be loaded for those who are trying to conceive, those who have experienced pregnancy/infant/child loss, or anyone at any point in his or her own parenthood journey for any number of reasons. For me, [...]