Tracy McLaughlin Jaskot

About Tracy McLaughlin Jaskot

Tracy McLaughlin Jaskot is an elementary educator in Massachusetts and mom to three children - her angel son Brayden, her rainbow daughter Ainsley Hope, and her second rainbow due in April 2018. She and her husband, Matt, lost their first son Brayden at 24 weeks gestation in May 2014 due to undiagnosed severe pre-eclampsia which led to a complete concealed placental abruption. Tracy has learned and grown from his stillbirth in more ways than she could have ever imagined. The PALS community has been vital in her subsequent pregnancies, shifting her experience from understandable anxiety to embracing pregnancy with hope.

The Boy Who is the Same Age

Photo credit: Sublime Photo Art My best friend’s sister was due with her first child, a boy, in October 2014. I was due with my first child, also a boy, in September 2014. After my son was stillborn at 24 weeks gestation in May, I would be lying if I said I wasn’t [...]

How Rainbow Pregnancies Have Impacted My Loss Anniversary

Today is the fourth anniversary of the day my son was stillborn. In some ways it feels like it was just yesterday that I held him, and in other ways it seems like it was a lifetime ago. Adding to the emotions of that life-changing hello and heartbreaking goodbye at 24 weeks is that his [...]

Tracy’s Bump Day Blog, Our Birth Story: Introducing Holden Matthew

Holden’s birth story starts long before his birth. His oldest brother Brayden was stillborn at 24 weeks in 2014 due to undiagnosed severe pre-eclampsia and a placental abruption, masked by my very low baseline blood pressure that spiked at the end. Holden’s older sister Ainsley, our first rainbow, was conceived four months after we lost [...]

Tracy’s Bump Day Blog, Week 36: The Other Side

Photo credit: Sublime Photo Art My births are inherently medical. I didn’t choose this, but I’m okay with it. There are a lot of ways to birth and to want to birth. Sometimes they can start out with a certain intention or plan and then change a little or a lot, depending on [...]

Tracy’s Bump Day Blog, Week 35: Looking Back

At 35 weeks pregnant and with not much further to go for this high-risk pregnancy, I find myself looking back over the entirety of these 35 weeks so far. It’s hard to believe that now in mid-March, I’m here still growing this sweet baby boy who was conceived in mid-July. We found out the good [...]

By | 2018-03-19T20:19:29+00:00 March 19th, 2018|3rd Trimester, Bump Day Blog|0 Comments

Tracy’s Bump Day Blog, Week 34: Baby Hiccups

As I get closer to my due date and even closer to my planned C-section - my first, due to a risk of uterine rupture - my nerves and anxiety are increasing exponentially. I am so excited to meet this child but with every positive moment of hope comes its counter-thought of, “please don’t lose [...]

By | 2018-03-12T15:36:04+00:00 March 12th, 2018|3rd Trimester, Bump Day Blog, Pregnancy|0 Comments

Tracy’s Bump Day Blog, Week 33: She’ll Never Know

Tracy's first rainbow, Ainsley Hope My toddler rainbow daughter was napping, and the way her top lip overlapped her bottom one, an effect created as she shifted slowly into sleep from sitting up watching her beloved Paw Patrol to partially sitting up to leaning over peacefully onto some pillows, gave me an overwhelming [...]

Tracy’s Bump Day Blog, Week 32: Movement

This pregnancy has been going relatively smoothly so far. I have excellent care, more trust in this process and myself, and am seen often by my high-risk doctor. The likelihood of missing something seems pretty low. Our plan was to add non-stress tests to my weekly appointments starting at 32 weeks. I am 32 weeks [...]

By | 2018-02-26T21:51:52+00:00 February 26th, 2018|3rd Trimester, Bump Day Blog, Pregnancy|0 Comments

Tracy’s Bump Day Blog, Week 31: A Pre-Conception Mantra

31 Weeks I am making my body a happy and healthy place for this next baby. I started saying this mantra to myself long before our baby was even conceived. It guided me when I wasn’t sure we would be lucky enough to be here: 31 weeks pregnant with baby number three after [...]

By | 2018-02-19T21:04:59+00:00 February 19th, 2018|3rd Trimester, Bump Day Blog, Pregnancy, TTC|0 Comments

Dear Mama, Trying to Control the Uncontrollable After Loss

Dear Mama, Trying to Control the Uncontrollable After Loss, I find comfort in trying to control very tiny things that might matter little to someone else. Keeping a clean home when possible. Things in just their right spot. When I get home, things need to be a certain way before I can truly relax. Not [...]