Nina Miller

About Nina Miller

Nina Miller lives, plays and works in Phoenix, Arizona with her husband, Jose Gonzalez. She is vocal about mental health destigmatization and personally struggles with depression, anxiety and ADHD. Pregnancy and baby loss have been present in her life for as long as she can remember. Nina was her mom's 4th known pregnancy after a series of losses between her brother, Marc, and herself. In addition to those losses, her eldest brother, Michael, was born prematurely and was with them for one day. After Nina's first loss, she found herself not comfortable speaking about it but realized that she couldn’t survive the grief alone. Three losses later, she is so grateful to every woman that has shared her story, either publicly or privately, and her mother has been a great role model and comfort throughout. Her first loss was a missed miscarriage discovered at 9 weeks after they saw the heartbeat the week before. After opting for no medical intervention, her body took 11 days to miscarry. Less than a year later, she was pregnant again, and at 8 weeks it was discovered to be anembryonic. Six months after that, there was a chemical pregnancy that ended on Christmas Day. After a bit of a break from trying to conceive, she is pregnant once again and is here to talk about it. Helping to build a social script for pregnancy loss and pregnancy after loss makes all the vulnerability worth it. In addition to working as a graphic designer, Nina finds joy on stage as an improvisor, finding what is funny in the truth of being human. She lives life like it’s an improv scene, trying to say “Yes, and” to the world even when it is hard.

Nina’s Bump Day Blog, Week 9 – Inconclusive

That is not what I wanted to hear at my 8 week check up with my doctor. The transvaginal ultrasound measurements were not on target. The fetal pole was measuring at about 6.5 weeks, and there was no heartbeat. Because not everyone gets their dates right, there is always a possibility that all is well. [...]

By |2017-12-05T16:38:23+00:00December 4th, 2017|1st Trimester, Bump Day Blog|0 Comments

Nina’s Bump Day Blog, Week 8 – Wake Me Up When December Ends

These are authentic nineties mix tapes pirated from the radio. Some of my earliest design work on the cases - I was always good with highlighters. All my emotions as a teenager were funneled into mix tapes. Actual tapes - I was a teen in the early 90's. (Did I mention I am of [...]

By |2017-11-27T22:15:31+00:00November 27th, 2017|1st Trimester, Bump Day Blog|2 Comments

Nina’s Bump Day Blog, Week 7 – Living with Uncertainty

All the evidence I have tells me I am pregnant, but it is not enough. After two losses where my body continued to keep calm and carry on as if all was well while the pregnancy went awry, I don’t trust the signals my body is giving me. My first loss was a missed miscarriage [...]

By |2017-11-27T17:55:38+00:00November 20th, 2017|1st Trimester, Bump Day Blog|0 Comments