Jennifer Massoni Pardini

About Jennifer Massoni Pardini

Jennifer Massoni Pardini is a longtime magazine editor and contributor who earned her M.F.A. in English and Creative Writing from Mills College. In 2012, she joined the pregnancy and infant loss community when she lost her first child, Lorenzo, when she was nearly six months pregnant. Her much-loved, much-wanted baby boy was diagnosed with a fatal heart defect, and she and her husband chose to spare him the pain of the extreme measures he would have had to endure upon being born. She met him still over an hour that changed her life. Five months later, she miscarried. Her greatest forms of healing have been found in writing about her son, in solidarity with other loss moms, and in her own arms when her daughters were born safely in 2014 and 2016. She has written about Lorenzo in The New York Times, The Washington Post Magazine, San Francisco Chronicle, Literary Mama, in the anthology Three Minus One: Stories of Parents’ Love and Loss, and on her website, which she has dedicated to helping other loss parents through their grief and healing. She is also completing a memoir about her journey. Today, she is honored to contribute to Pregnancy After Loss Support’s team of Courageous Mamas and share what pregnancy and parenting after loss have meant to her. You may also follow her on Twitter and help her collect hearts in her son’s honor with the Chain-Link Heart Project.

The Grief Gap

Five years on, here is something new in the grief: I need to go back to work. I have freelanced consistently over these years of losing and being pregnant again and, now, raising two young daughters. However, the last time I properly interviewed for a job, I was 30, a newlywed, an Innocent. Two years [...]

Because I Am the Mother of Two Daughters and an Invisible Son

Editor’s Note: We at Pregnancy After Loss Support (PALS) know that we serve many moms from diverse backgrounds and experiences. The following is one mom’s experience of the Women's March. This article may not resonate with you, and that is ok, but we will not tolerate any shaming or judgmental language in response to this [...]

By |2017-02-21T11:53:53-04:00February 21st, 2017|Parenting After Loss, TFMR|1 Comment

Before You Were Born

“What’s that, Mama?” My eldest daughter asked as she pointed to the silver bracelet I’ve worn on my right wrist for four-and-a-half years. At nearly three, she is, as the community says, my first rainbow baby. Ever since I was pregnant with her, after two losses, I’ve thought about how I would tell her about [...]

By |2017-01-17T09:27:07-04:00January 17th, 2017|Parenting After Loss|0 Comments

Baby Loss as Oral History

Last month, I took a deep breath and published a piece here on PALS about my response to the presidential election. I needed to steady myself because to write about TFMR is a vulnerable action as we lose reproductive rights state-by-state and perhaps nationwide after Inauguration Day. Just as sharing my story becomes more important than [...]

By |2016-12-20T08:14:17-04:00December 20th, 2016|Parenting After Loss, TFMR|1 Comment

The Mourning Of

Editor’s Note: We at Pregnancy After Loss Support (PALS) know that we serve many moms from diverse backgrounds and experiences. The following is one mom’s experience after the results of last week’s presidential election. This article may not resonate with you, and that is ok, but we will not tolerate any shaming or judgmental language in response [...]

By |2016-11-15T07:50:31-04:00November 15th, 2016|Parenting After Loss, TFMR|4 Comments

October Resource Round-Up

It’s October, which many of us now know as Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month. In my case, it’s the fourth time I’ve lit a candle on October 15 as part of the Wave of Light that circles the world in remembrance of our babies. Of course, we loss mamas know what this journey requires [...]

By |2016-10-17T22:52:35-04:00October 18th, 2016|Parenting After Loss|0 Comments

Friends’ Pregnancies After My Losses

I made it through two healthy pregnancies after two losses. I have living, thriving daughters who allow me to feel immersed in what once felt so far away—active, chaotic, exhausting, invigorating, stunning parenthood. Only four years ago, time moved more slowly than I’ve ever known it—while I was surviving my children, weathering back-to-back losses. The [...]

By |2016-10-13T17:07:27-04:00September 20th, 2016|Parenting After Loss|0 Comments

We Are Talking About It

It’s one of the secondary losses we experience around pregnancy loss—we lose our baby and then we realize that talking about is taboo. Those closest to us may prove awkward in our company. We don’t know where to find other parents like us. All at once, this silencing shutters our stories, asks us to shoulder [...]

One Year of PALS

It’s 4 a.m. and I am rocking my three-month-old daughter, who has a slight temperature and congestion. My two-year-old daughter is asleep, as is my husband and our dog. I’m the only one awake in the darkness, save the streetlights. This is how she will sleep, so I will take this watch. A year ago, [...]