Amber Combs

About Amber Combs

Amber Combs has come to find out that she is many things. She is currently pregnant to a son, mother to fraternal girl/boy twins, Devyn and Jaxton, a rainbow named Charly, as well as a wife to an amazing husband who is the reason she is where she is today. She has two male dogs, Knox and Diesel, which are her best friends and spoiled way too much for their own good. Those dogs warm her heart so much. Her twins were born on Jan 1, 2013 due to Prom, major placental abruptions and sepsis. Her son, Jaxton, died after birth while she was still being closed up from a classical cesarean and her daughter, Devyn, died on Jan 2, 2013. All of this was caused from a virus in her first trimester in which she was misdiagnosed by 5 doctors. Her trust and faith in the medical community was destroyed once she found out from the autopsy why her babies died. Months after, she found MISS Foundation and they helped her and her husband get back on track with getting back to living. She has learned so much from this group of people and they have become her main support and a great group of friends. Without these people she doesn't believe she would have survived the death of her children or have the courage to have another child. Her rainbow daughter was born in September through another C-Section. The decision to get pregnant was extremely hard to make for the fear she had and the trust she lacked.

Mixed Emotions of the Holiday

Christmas and New Years used to be my favorite holidays growing up. I loved being surrounded by family. The loudness when I walked into my grandparent’s house. The arguing and fighting over the games we competed on. The dinner with so much food that we would visit my grandma for days after to eat lunch. [...]

By |2016-10-13T17:11:08+00:00December 24th, 2015|Emotional Health, Parenting After Loss, Pregnancy|0 Comments

The Field of Fears and Possibilities

Pregnancy after loss can be utterly and completely terrifying. I don’t really know when I have been more scared of possibilities. Within the beauty of this pregnancy comes a field of fears and possibilities. After my near death and my twins actually death, the reality of possibilities came barreling in the moment I find out [...]

By |2016-10-13T17:11:37+00:00November 26th, 2015|3rd Trimester, Uncategorized|0 Comments

Separation Anxiety or Fear of it Being the Last Time

I hate leaving my daughter. Monday through Friday, when I drop her off in the morning, it is the most painful part of my day. I drag at the babysitters just so I can hold her a little bit longer. To see the smile on her face just one more time. Thankfully I have a [...]

By |2016-10-13T17:13:08+00:00September 24th, 2015|Emotional Health, Parenting After Loss, The First Year|1 Comment

My 2nd journey of a Rainbow

I thought that getting pregnant with, hopefully, my 2nd rainbow would be a bit easier on me emotionally. I mean, I have experienced a successful birth at this point. It wasn’t just the constant reminder that all my body knows is to fail me. Being able to look at my healthy, living daughter should help [...]

By |2016-10-13T17:13:42+00:00August 27th, 2015|2nd Trimester, Pregnancy, Pregnancy Announcement|1 Comment

Things I’m Learning on My Journey of Raising a Rainbow

My rainbow is now 9 months old. I have officially had her outside of my womb longer than she was inside. She has a personality that amazes and astounds me. This little girl of mine here on earth, has given me the roller coaster of emotions. The emotions that all parents get. On top of [...]

By |2016-10-13T17:15:04+00:00June 25th, 2015|Emotional Health, The First Year|1 Comment

New Life, New Friends

This weekend, as a mother I just met asked me for my number to get together with the kids, I realized that having a rainbow has changed my life in other ways than I anticipated. I didn’t anticipate that I would have the longing, want, and need to make friends with other moms for my [...]

By |2016-10-13T17:16:00+00:00May 28th, 2015|The First Year, Uncategorized|0 Comments

The Happy Moments – Balancing Grief and Life

I haven’t written anything about pregnancy after loss since my daughter was born. After Charlynn was born, I felt that I needed to work harder at getting people to remember and honor Devyn and Jaxton. That I needed to focus more on Devyn and Jaxton so that they wouldn’t be forgotten, pushed to the side, [...]

By |2015-10-12T09:46:17+00:00April 24th, 2015|Emotional Health, The First Year|4 Comments

When Reality Sets In

On September 17th, I gave birth to my second daughter. I’m not going to go into depth of my birth story or tell you how amazing her birth went. Having an amazing and memorable birth doesn’t mean much to me. I know that this is important for many women, but I didn’t care what happened [...]