Alexis Marie Chute

About Alexis Marie Chute

Alexis Marie Chute is an award-winning artist, author and filmmaker. She resides in Alberta, Canada with her husband Aaron and their three living children Hannah, Eden and Luca. Her second-born, Zachary, died at birth from a random cardiac tumor in 2010. Alexis Marie wrote a memoir called Expecting Sunshine about her pregnancy that followed. Through vulnerability and poetic language, she revealed the anxiety-filled anticipation of having a baby after losing a baby. While pregnant with her fourth, Alexis Marie created Expecting Sunshine Documentary to support bereaved yet growing families and educate the public of what pregnancy after loss really looks like. Alexis Marie has her Bachelor of Fine Art in visual art from the University of Alberta and her Masters of Fine Art in creative writing from Lesley University in Cambridge, MA. Photo Life Magazine named her an “Emerging Canadian Photographer,” Avenue Magazine included her in their round-up of the Top 40 Under 40, and she was the recipient of the John Poole Award for promotion of the Arts. Alexis Marie was featured in print and video as a Mother-Expert in Today’s Parent Magazine’s Miscarriage and Pregnancy Loss awareness campaign, which won first place at the 38th Annual National Magazine Awards for Best Editorial Package on the Web. Alexis Marie is a highly regarded speaker and has presented on art, writing, bereavement and the healing capacities of creativity around the world. She is widely published in anthologies, newspapers and magazines and her artworks on loss, healing and resiliency have been exhibited across North America. Wanted Chosen Planned is Alexis Marie’s blog about life after the loss of a child. You can follow Alexis Marie on Twitter at both @_Alexis_Marie and @expectsunbook, Facebook at both Always Alexis Marie and Expecting Sunshine, Instagram, LinkedIn, and Tumblr. She can be reached by email, and you can see her work at her websites Alexis Marie Chute, Alexis Marie Art, Alexis Marie Writes, Wanted Chosen Planned, and Expecting Sunshine.

A Meaningful Gift for Mother’s Day

Mother’s Day is a trigger for bereaved Moms. I experience this every year, even seven years after my son Zachary died. I’m grateful for International Bereaved Mother’s Day as an opportunity to celebrate my bond with my child I carry in my heart. Still, the month of May can be hard. This is why I [...]

Five Lessons on the Birthday of Expecting Sunshine

One thing I have noticed since losing my son, Zachary, is how I appreciate milestones more deeply. I love celebrating the birthdays of my two rainbow babies and my daughter, who was one-year-old when Zach passed away. So too am I grateful to wish my “book baby” a very happy birthday. One year ago today, [...]

The Healing Power of Music

Music brings people together. Literally – thousands of people gather at concerts – and figuratively. Imagine people all around the world humming to the same soundtrack that you have running through your head. Imagine looking over at the car beside you and seeing the driver’s lips moving to the lyrics playing on your radio. I [...]

Oh, How Far We’ve Come

When I think back to what I was like in the early days after my loss, I barely recognize that person. I have grown and changed so much in the seven-and-a-half-years since my second child, Zachary, died in my arms moments after birth. At dinner tonight, my daughter Hannah pulled out a question card from [...]

Hand-Me-Downs for the Rainbow

Before I learned about the complication in my pregnancy with Zachary, I had been amassing a small collection of baby boy clothes. My first child was a girl, Hannah, and so I was starting from scratch. I picked up cute onesies form Costco and was given newborn to twelve-month-old clothes from friends and family. Some [...]

By | 2018-01-16T21:20:27+00:00 January 16th, 2018|Emotional Health, Parenting After Loss|0 Comments

Christmas: A Trigger & a Choice

While my pregnancy after loss journey has brought me much joy, I still find Christmas a trigger season. I know it is a hard time for many grievers. It’s a sad paradox, really; a time so intent that we be merry is in fact a source of sadness for some. My son, Zachary, was due [...]

By | 2017-12-20T09:02:25+00:00 December 20th, 2017|Emotional Health, Parenting After Loss|0 Comments

A Tattoo to Remember

Even when you go on to have a healthy rainbow baby after your loss, many bereaved parents still search for meaningful ways to remember their baby that died. This is natural and healthy. There are a lot of options for remembrance... but what about a tattoo? I heard something really interesting at the class I [...]

By | 2017-11-14T22:43:49+00:00 November 14th, 2017|Parenting After Loss|0 Comments

Parenting is Hard

One of my favorite lines in Expecting Sunshine documentary is spoken by bereaved mom Kiley Hanish, founder of the Return to Zero Center for Healing. Kiley talks about parenting after the loss of a child as challenging, but admits that parenting – in general – is hard. I love that honestly! Every time the film [...]

By | 2017-09-19T18:38:39+00:00 September 19th, 2017|Emotional Health, Parenting After Loss|0 Comments

Choose What Defines You

In the six-and-a-half years since Zachary’s birth and death, I have grown a lot in how I respond to people. At first, the ignorant comments of others really bothered me and I stewed over them. There are so many things I remember from those early days and months: I remember when my grief for my [...]

5 Ways to GIVE Support to PAL Parents

In my first pregnancy after loss, I was  terrified of losing another child. I couldn't picture giving birth to a baby that lived. It was a paralyzing fear. Despite the fact that I was so eager to have and love that next baby with all my heart, that pregnancy was rough. It was a season [...]

By | 2017-07-19T09:18:09+00:00 July 17th, 2017|Pregnancy, Tips from PAL Moms|0 Comments