Alexis Marie Chute

About Alexis Marie Chute

Alexis Marie Chute is an award-winning artist, author and filmmaker. She resides in Alberta, Canada with her husband Aaron and their three living children Hannah, Eden and Luca. Her second-born, Zachary, died at birth from a random cardiac tumor in 2010. Alexis Marie wrote a memoir called Expecting Sunshine about her pregnancy that followed. Through vulnerability and poetic language, she revealed the anxiety-filled anticipation of having a baby after losing a baby. While pregnant with her fourth, Alexis Marie created Expecting Sunshine Documentary to support bereaved yet growing families and educate the public of what pregnancy after loss really looks like. Alexis Marie has her Bachelor of Fine Art in visual art from the University of Alberta and her Masters of Fine Art in creative writing from Lesley University in Cambridge, MA. Photo Life Magazine named her an “Emerging Canadian Photographer,” Avenue Magazine included her in their round-up of the Top 40 Under 40, and she was the recipient of the John Poole Award for promotion of the Arts. Alexis Marie was featured in print and video as a Mother-Expert in Today’s Parent Magazine’s Miscarriage and Pregnancy Loss awareness campaign, which won first place at the 38th Annual National Magazine Awards for Best Editorial Package on the Web. Alexis Marie is a highly regarded speaker and has presented on art, writing, bereavement and the healing capacities of creativity around the world. She is widely published in anthologies, newspapers and magazines and her artworks on loss, healing and resiliency have been exhibited across North America. Wanted Chosen Planned is Alexis Marie’s blog about life after the loss of a child. You can follow Alexis Marie on Twitter at both @_Alexis_Marie and @expectsunbook, Facebook at both Always Alexis Marie and Expecting Sunshine, Instagram, LinkedIn, and Tumblr. She can be reached by email, and you can see her work at her websites Alexis Marie Chute, Alexis Marie Art, Alexis Marie Writes, Wanted Chosen Planned, and Expecting Sunshine.

A Tattoo to Remember

Even when you go on to have a healthy rainbow baby after your loss, many bereaved parents still search for meaningful ways to remember their baby that died. This is natural and healthy. There are a lot of options for remembrance... but what about a tattoo? I heard something really interesting at the class I [...]

By | 2017-11-14T22:43:49+00:00 November 14th, 2017|Parenting After Loss|0 Comments

Parenting is Hard

One of my favorite lines in Expecting Sunshine documentary is spoken by bereaved mom Kiley Hanish, founder of the Return to Zero Center for Healing. Kiley talks about parenting after the loss of a child as challenging, but admits that parenting – in general – is hard. I love that honestly! Every time the film [...]

By | 2017-09-19T18:38:39+00:00 September 19th, 2017|Emotional Health, Parenting After Loss|0 Comments

Choose What Defines You

In the six-and-a-half years since Zachary’s birth and death, I have grown a lot in how I respond to people. At first, the ignorant comments of others really bothered me and I stewed over them. There are so many things I remember from those early days and months: I remember when my grief for my [...]

5 Ways to GIVE Support to PAL Parents

In my first pregnancy after loss, I was  terrified of losing another child. I couldn't picture giving birth to a baby that lived. It was a paralyzing fear. Despite the fact that I was so eager to have and love that next baby with all my heart, that pregnancy was rough. It was a season [...]

By | 2017-07-19T09:18:09+00:00 July 17th, 2017|Pregnancy, Tips from PAL Moms|0 Comments

The Healthy Grief Movement

I didn’t give much thought to grief before losing my son, Zachary, to a heart tumor in 2010. My few experiences with funerals were few and far between. There I observed the bereaved as sullen but composed. They were not weeping, though did shed a few tears. They were not outwardly angry and thanked people [...]

A Trigger Question: “Are You Going to Have More Kids?”

  Before losing Zachary, there was no question in my mind about how many kids I wanted. The answer was “lots and close together.” I learned from my loss, however, that I am not in control of every facet of my life. That reality took some getting used to. I was a mess of emotions [...]

Expecting Sunshine: Writing as a Tool to “Get Free”

When I was pregnant with my rainbow baby after losing my son, Zachary, I felt like it was nearly impossible to expect sunshine. I was living under a cloud of anxiety. The first few weeks in the pregnancy were a brief calm before the storm. It wasn’t until that initial excitement had passed that I [...]

By | 2017-04-19T11:14:41+00:00 April 19th, 2017|Birth, Emotional Health, Pregnancy|0 Comments

Create a Legacy Project for your Baby

A “legacy project,” as I call it, is a great way to remember your baby that died and a special way to make him or her a part of your family moving forward. A “legacy” is something which is passed down, something given from one generation to another. Though our children’s deaths are natural order [...]

Balancing Fear and Faith in Rainbow Parenting

Parenting after the loss of a child is amazing. You have a beautiful baby in your hands. This child breathes, blinks, coos, laughs and cries. Every day is a miracle and you count your blessings. At the same time, it can also be ripe with inner anxiety. I remember giving birth to my first rainbow [...]

By | 2017-02-15T09:37:06+00:00 February 15th, 2017|Parenting After Loss, Tips from PAL Moms|0 Comments

6 Ideas to Celebrate your Rainbow Baby

I often write about ways to honor the babies not with us, but I believe it is also important to celebrate our rainbows in unique ways. Here are some ideas: 1.    When you are pregnant, commission a body artist to paint your growing belly with inspiring and hopeful images. I did something like this [...]

By | 2017-01-18T09:10:51+00:00 January 18th, 2017|Parenting After Loss, Pregnancy|0 Comments