Laila Bougria

About Laila Bougria

Laila Bougria was born and brought up in Antwerp, Belgium, but will soon be moving to London to pursue new dreams and adventures with her family. She is software developer and photographer, but above all, she is a daughter, a sister, an aunt, a wife, and last but mostly, a mother to two beautiful children. Her firstborn girl Sahar, was born on May 7th 2013 at 22 weeks gestation, after being diagnosed with severe hydrocephalus and therefore incompatible with life outside the womb. She stayed to say goodbye for a very brief moment and now lives in the hearts of her parents and family. Her little rainbow boy Ayden, was due just 11 days shy from his little sister Sahar, and arrived safe and sound into this world on September 15th, 2014. After losing Sahar, Laila started a healing journey through a blog at Loving an Angel instead, on which she shared grief and joy, sorrow and hope, fears and dreams. It was a bit quiet over there during her rainbow pregnancy, but she has now found her way back to it. She has been a guest writer on Lindsey Henke's beautiful site at Stillborn and Still Breathing, and is deeply honored to share her experiences with our readers here. You can find her on Facebook, Instagram, or through her blog.

The Difference when You’re a Bereaved Parent

I've been going back and forth on posting this piece, just because there is no easy way to explain these feelings and also because it's hard to admit I even have them. Today I want to talk about how different the love sometimes feel between the one I lost and the one I have, and [...]

By |2016-10-13T17:15:49+00:00June 2nd, 2015|Parenting After Loss|1 Comment

Celebrating our children on Earth and in Heaven

I still can't believe it. In just 2 days, my daughter Sahar will turn 2 in heaven. 2! As her birthday closes in, I feel more and more guilty, lost, and conflicted. Last year was so different. I was pregnant with our rainbow Ayden and I was going through terrible fear episodes as I reached [...]

By |2016-10-13T17:16:20+00:00May 5th, 2015|The First Year|4 Comments

What got me through my PAL

Losing my daughter Sahar, was the most heartbreaking, earth-shattering, difficult thing I’ve been through in my entire life. 6 months later, I was super blessed to be pregnant again, and that… was the second most difficult thing I’ve had to get through in my life. Once that plus sign appeared on that pregnancy test, anxiety [...]

By |2016-10-13T17:16:43+00:00April 7th, 2015|Pregnancy|1 Comment

When Fear Doesn’t End

It’s been a while since I shared my thoughts, fears and hopes with the world. I loved blogging about my journey at Loving An Angel Instead. It was a beautiful way to share my feelings and thoughts, and heal a little bit further with each post I published. But then lightening struck once more, and my [...]

By |2016-10-13T17:17:21+00:00March 3rd, 2015|Emotional Health, The First Year|1 Comment