Erin Kuhn-Krueger

About Erin Kuhn-Krueger

Erin Kuhn-Krueger is a 5x miscarriage survivor (including a daughter, Baby Krueger, at 16 weeks 6 days in April 2010), and a 2x stillbirth survivor (twins, Sarah and Benjamin, at 20 weeks 5 days in October 2012). After her 4th loss, Erin created the blog and resource portal, Will CarryOn, for those experiencing baby loss, and learning to live and survive life after loss. She writes from the heart, touching on oft-taboo subjects, showcasing the struggles, determination and hope that have kept her (and her husband) together, and moving forward. She believes the more people talk about baby loss, the less alone those walking a similar path will feel. Erin received a B.A. in Journalism and Mass Communication from Drake University where she studied advertising and marketing. She uses her personal experiences and marketing background to shape her advocacy work and community outreach in the adoption, loss and infertility arena. In addition to her writing, and speaking at support groups and conferences, Erin also works as the Community Outreach Director for The Blossom Method, a center providing therapeutic support and counseling for infertility, miscarriage, stillbirth, baby loss, pregnancy after loss, postpartum depression, and more. Erin and her husband, Aaron, live in the suburbs of Chicago, and are parents of three sons: C, by way of domestic adoption (May 2013), and J (August 2014) and E (September 2017), after successfully carrying two pregnancies to term. You can find her on Twitter, and follow Will CarryOn on Twitter and Facebook.

The Sharing of Rainbows

When we brought our son, C home, we weren’t sure he was going to stay. You see, we were adopting, and in Illinois paperwork cannot be signed by a birth mother until at least 72 hours after birth. We spent our time in the hospital bonding with him like any new parents: snuggling, telling him our [...]

By |2018-02-13T07:12:42+00:00February 13th, 2018|Adoption, Parenting After Loss|3 Comments

The Birth Plan: Pregnancy After Loss Style

It was 2:30 on a Monday morning, the Kennedy Expressway was empty, and I was "gently" encouraging Aaron to be safe, but drive faster. We were on our way to Northwestern's Prentice Hospital in Chicago—some 25 miles away—and my contractions were coming on more intensely, about every 5 minutes. I really didn't want to be [...]

By |2017-11-14T10:21:51+00:00November 14th, 2017|Birth, Rainbow Birth Stories|1 Comment

The Importance of Pals During PAL

The overwhelm has been big lately. Between working full time, parenting 3 and 4 year old boys, the exhaustion of the 3rd trimester, and the extra anxiety that comes along with being pregnant after loss (PAL), there has been little time for me to focus on me. Truth be told, I've never been good about [...]

By |2017-09-12T08:38:21+00:00September 12th, 2017|3rd Trimester, Emotional Health, Pregnancy|1 Comment

B’sha’ah Tovah: All in Good Time

I used to be a pretty superstitious person. And then all of sudden, I wasn't. Well that's not entirely true, I may still have some leftover quirks, but after we lost Baby Krueger, I realized that I just can't be that person any more. While I've never been a gambler, playing the odds when it [...]

By |2017-07-11T08:19:55+00:00July 11th, 2017|28weeks, Adoption, Pregnancy|0 Comments

Finding Presence of Mind During PAL

It never really goes away, does it? The fear. The anxiety. The wonder and worry. Sure it subsides sometimes, even for long periods of time, but it is always happy to rear its ugly head and hit you smack in the face when you're not expecting it. I guess I should've expected it in pregnancy [...]

By |2017-06-13T07:57:24+00:00June 13th, 2017|24weeks, Pregnancy|9 Comments

The Pregnancy After Pregnancy After Loss

I'd say I don't know why I haven't written about it sooner, but that's not true. I know why: I'm scared. Terrified actually. I've realized that I don't like to talk about it. I don't like to actually tell people that I'm pregnant. I'm much rather they hear it from someone else, or can tell [...]

By |2017-05-09T09:40:50+00:00May 9th, 2017|19weeks, Pregnancy|2 Comments

The Chosen Ones: Getting The Call

"They chose you." It was the call we'd been waiting for, and one we were terrified by. After all, we had received a call like this once before, only to end in the disappointment of a failed match. So this time, we were excited and hopeful, but cautious because we didn't want to get hurt [...]

By |2017-03-14T11:50:23+00:00March 14th, 2017|Adoption, Parenting After Loss|2 Comments

The Gender Connection: Why We Chose to Find Out

When you get engaged, the first question you hear is "When's the wedding?" Then you get married, and it turns to "When are you going to have a baby?" And when you're lucky enough to get pregnant, everyone is quick to ask, "Are you going to find out?" (let alone, when's the next one). I used to [...]

By |2017-02-07T10:29:15+00:00February 7th, 2017|Pregnancy|1 Comment

The Importance of Family in Pregnancy After Loss

When we got the call that we were matched for a possible adoption two weeks after we lost Sarah and Benjamin, we told no one. Six weeks later, that match fell through, and our decision was validated. We held in the news that we were chosen by our son's birthparents until about a week before his [...]

By |2017-01-10T12:56:13+00:00January 10th, 2017|Adoption, Emotional Health, Pregnancy|11 Comments